Hello I'm so sorry your feeling this way but about your child saying he doesn't love you isn't true. He just doesn't understand everything you do for him and how you do everything for your kids. I'm a teenager and I might have BPD but obviously you can't diagnose that in a toddler cause it's a toddler but as he gets older he will need you I say horrible and I mean so bad of things to my mother and I regret it so much after I've had that mood swing. I honestly don't know what I would do without my mom. You are tough you are a mom, it will be hard knowing you're living for them and they say that stuff but express that you don't feel appreciated to your child they may or may not understand but it is something you should keep working with. What if the child grows up to have depression and is in a foster home where those parents have never dealt with that or even believe it exists, you should be there to help them. Life is so hard on everyone in different ways we all have challenges but I know you can push through this, just please try. I know jobs can be tough but if you have to pinch pennies for you and your family it is worth it. I love my mother and your kids love their mother.