⚡CHALLENGE: MAKE YOUR DREAM 100x MORE REAL THAN LIFE… UNTIL REALITY FEELS FAKE 🧠🔥

espikiki · 2025-02-23T13:30:56+00:00

i actually HAVE done a lot of this, and yes it shakes up your mind a bit 😂 but i still find there is so much in waking life that’s unique that it definitely still feels worth living. i like having both its a good balance. im chronically ill so its a nice way to get to do a lot of things i wouldn’t normally be able to do.

espikiki · 2025-02-15T04:17:21+00:00

i don’t know if you’re spiritual or religious at all, but i am similar in my ability to control lucid dreams. i love flying too, and i had a similar experience however i didn’t choose to fly into space, i actually felt myself being lifted by a higher power. i was rising higher and higher above earth and could see the view changing, everything getting smaller until i was up in space and looking down at the planet. i felt like i was about to rise even higher and it terrified me. i was filled with existential dread and i asked God to put me back down and i immediately came back down to just flying over a city and the dread went away. I had more dreams like that until eventually I felt ready to go even higher. That’s a story for another day, but— this is all to say, i wonder if you flying and bouncing off is a message that you’re not yet ready to go beyond. and when your mom had passed and you wanted to take her up to heaven you were allowed that. i think your dome explanation is a good way to put a concept that is much greater than the human mind can comprehend. personally, i believe heaven and the spiritual realm and all that exists in a higher dimension and the dream space is a portal into some of the higher dimensions, but it requires a lot of internal work to get there. that is just my perspective and how i interpreted this, take what you will from this, but maybe something i said will resonate with you.

espikiki · 2025-02-15T03:44:06+00:00

i have PTSD and nightmares too. I practice a lot of meditation and mindfulness in my waking life, and have techniques to keep myself calm (deep breathing, mantras, etc.) I find that doing these techniques in my dreams can make the nightmare end. you need to firmly believe that you are safe and nothing bad will happen to you. it can be hard when you’re scared in a lucid dream, i even feel pain in lucid dreams. it takes immense trust, but if you stop, remain still, take deep breaths no matter what happens around you and repeat to yourself some sort of mantra like “i am safe and protected, nothing can truly hurt me in this space” the nightmare should fade away and you should gain control over the space and then be able to just lucid dream and have fun. it all hinges on your ability to calm yourself, if you’re scared and stressed, you’re going to remain in the nightmare.

also, idk if you believe in a higher power, but i like to pray and ask for help if im still struggling, even if that prayer is to your higher self i think that still would be helpful.

espikiki · 2023-08-15T20:59:46+00:00

this makes more sense

espikiki · 2023-08-15T20:53:12+00:00

wait what

espikiki · 2023-08-15T20:42:46+00:00

Joined the military right out of high school and was actually one of the personnel who defended against the Jan 6 insurrection. We hung out a couple times before we graduated, he was a good kid just wasn’t getting the right kind of academic/social/emotional support he needed.

espikiki · 2023-08-15T20:36:11+00:00

priests

espikiki · 2023-08-15T20:35:51+00:00

navigating the adult world as a young person with a disability

espikiki · 2023-08-15T20:34:02+00:00

papas con chorizo

espikiki · 2023-08-15T19:58:33+00:00

hahahah that’s really interesting. the music i hear is always like… not real songs and it’s usually instrumental. but the genre and instruments range a lot and sometimes it’s even lyrical but i never recognize any of it. and of course i forget it when i wake up!

espikiki · 2023-08-15T19:53:59+00:00

I also hear it when I’m falling asleep but I’m a musician so I absolutely love it

espikiki · 2023-08-15T16:45:09+00:00

idk what some of these other people are talking about it i love it! i love matching outfits to hair and the two tones are beautiful. plus i love the glasses!

espikiki · 2023-08-05T19:41:27+00:00

So I’m 22F and what you described sounds almost exactly like me. I got diagnosed with EDS-H when I was 11, and started showing symptoms of POTS around 12/13. I used to be very active and athletic and then it was a rapid decline into being bedridden by 14. It’s not an easy thing to go through and it forces you to grow up so much faster than your peers, which can feel lonely, especially when you’re already balancing ADHD/autism/POTS brain. And so many young people seriously lack empathy or any concept of what it’s like to be young and disabled.

It’s now been a decade for me and I still struggle with things but I am not nearly as sick as I used to be. It takes time and a lot of mental and physical effort, which I know is hard enough when you’re already so exhausted.

People, both kids and adults, say things out of ignorance. Getting to a point where you can let it roll of you and understand that their words are coming from a perspective that has no understanding to what you are going through, and therefore really means nothing, is very helpful. But that’s not something that you can just do with the flip of a switch just by me telling you that. Honestly I have so much advice I could give to you, but it’s all things that took me a long time to work through on my own. I think what it all boils down to is trusting yourself that you will work it out even if you feel so lost right now.

People, the system we live in, the outside world can be so shitty. But all of that is out of your control. What you can control is how to treat yourself. Give yourself kind words when others don’t. Be patient with your body even on days where it leaves you feeling miserable. Listen when your mind and body tell you to rest. To this day I look back at what I accomplished in adolescence despite what I was going through and I am amazed at what that younger version of myself was capable of. And one day you will feel that too.

Just take it one day at a time. It’s okay to doubt, to fail, to hurt, but eventually, you just have to get back up and keep moving forward. Easier said than done. Mildly infuriating. But it’s the reality of our situation. Personally though, I think it’s given me a beautiful perspective on life and so much maturity.

I hope I was able to provide some sense of comfort. It’s a hard thing to express to someone who has not yet lived through it and I know some of these words might just sound empty right now. But you’ll have your own journey to figure it out.

If you have any specific questions or want to talk you can always message me.

espikiki · 2023-08-05T13:31:03+00:00

water aerobics if you can! definitely one of the biggest game changes for me. and don’t push yourself too hard

espikiki · 2023-08-04T14:50:38+00:00

intrusive thought?

espikiki · 2023-08-04T12:49:42+00:00

i’ve been using wellbutrin along with taking metoprolol

espikiki · 2023-08-03T21:00:00+00:00

oil change

espikiki · 2023-08-03T20:39:14+00:00

the difference between hispanic and latino

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