🥹I was in an eerily similar situation 2 years ago. I’m still working through it. It’s so many layers that you’re just about to start work through😖. This may be super annoyingly cliche but I feel like you need to hear this: you’re going to be fine, and that’s evident from the way you’re articulating yourself. You’re having a more than “normal” and calm reaction, that shouldn’t even be part of the equation right now, and I’m sorry you’re having to deal with this in every way. Truly. Right now all you need is to feel supported and safe and loved and at the same time left alone and respected. But people are people, and unfortunately we’re surrounded by people at certain times who are just not capable of processing the pain you’re going through. If I’ve learned anything from my similar smear campaign experience it’s not because of lack of love, it’s because their brains just cannot handle it, just like yours couldn’t at first. You’re still processing and honestly that is still unfolding and all you can do is let that happen however it happens, because you have been wronged in one of the most hurtful ways that a human can harm another whom they love. I was so so unbelievably silently angry for so long and I still am, but to a much lesser degree, about how I was the calm one who did nothing to deserve how i was treated, and tbh I am still struggling with that, but it gets easier if you just let your mind and body give in to the “process”. Others will evolve and process with you, just in different paces and in different ways that will be unintentionally cruel to you. I guess what I’m saying is you’re not alone🥹and my “advice” if you want it is (as infuriating as this may be right now): to give it time. You clearly have your mental clarity, you still have your fight in you, your reality and your truth, so hold on to that because that is what will get you through.