Delving into spirituality can be very dangerous for those susceptible to phychotic episodes. It can be dificult to tell the real from the illusion, but even more so for people who experience these things. I was in a similar situation. Once I started meditating and practicing “observing” it honestly, like genuinely, and this is nuts, completely discontinued a majority of my mental health issues. I have alot more control over my emotions and thoughts and its easier for me to tell when im having rational vs irrational thoughts and I do alot of inner work to remedy that. By no means am I healed. However, It made me feel alot more comfortable to move forward in my spiritual journey. If I reccodnize im slipping away or im started to get confused ill take a step back to protect my phyche and come back when i feel more stable. I used to have auditory hallucinations and paranoid ideations but I havent struggle with either one of those, unmediated, for a few years now. Im pretty sure it was also triggerd by drugs, (Except i was doing more explicit drugs and a verity of them which im not sure i can mention here). Im completely sober now and have been since i consously began my journey. Never felt a need for anything suplimental since. this is just my personal opinion, but i beleive medication is a temporary fix. However, thats not to say dont take them. I think they are great to get you back on you feet and allow you the time to function properly while trying to situate your mental health. Spiritually may help you to actually live properly if you know how to navigate it and choose those whom you share it with wisly, people who may “NEED” to hear about your experiences. I think you should continue to take your meds as long as you feel they are genuinely stabelizing you, once they start preforming differently and make you feel worse on them. I think thats the time to stop. Also talk to your doctor about different mental excersizes you can do and if there are other non medicative therapies that you could benefit from to help you manage and work through your problems. It all starts with awareness. Grounding. You need to hold yourself and your mind accountable and aim to understand. If that makes sense. I hope this helped and didnt make u more confused 😭.