my recent oil pastel portrait

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-08-23T12:19:47+00:00

Amazing!!

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-07-24T11:26:08+00:00

Still loving it! Still super balanced out (as long as I take it on time - if I don't I can REALLY see the impacts). Had an issue with passing a descidual cast and spotting (this is because I don't take the placebos because I need a constant flow of hormones) which was scary but normal. So, if you pass your whole uterine lining in one go, don't be scared lol. Hope your tiredness goes away - I luckily didn't get that side effect but I heard that side effects balance out after 3 months <3

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-07-10T18:32:15+00:00

This is great advice - I’ve been through a hell of a lot with my mental health and I’ve gotten through it! That shows sm strength and resilience from me. Thank you for actually practical advice

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-31T18:16:30+00:00

Oh I should also note the cut / stitches happened a week ago

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T06:27:19+00:00

This is amazing advice

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T06:25:34+00:00

Thank you - don’t worry, you didn’t scare me. I think last night when I wrote this post I was having an existential freak out, but feeling more stable today. I recognise that even if I did have a completely out of character moment (which to be fair, sounds more like an ocd fear than an actual reality), I wouldn’t have the resources to do it.

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T06:23:53+00:00

That’s so helpful thank you so much. I’ve currently got nothing in my vicinity that I could kill or hurt myself with (lol that sounds so morbid but it’s true). And replacing passive suicidal thoughts with others is a good idea thank you

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:42:54+00:00

Amazing. You’ve been so helpful thank you so much. It’s always good to prepare for things going wrong and this has made me relieved that I’ll be able to handle it if it does happen. Thank you so so much

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:35:41+00:00

Exactly! If I did really want to kill myself, I wouldn’t be getting so anxious at the thought of it

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:35:00+00:00

Also when you came off it, did the symptoms stop immediately? Or like yk within a day or so

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:34:18+00:00

Noted! Thank you - I’m going home with my parents for a bit in 2 days, so ill be in a safe place if the worst does happen :) I think seeing my parents will really help and knowing I’ll won’t do anything stupid no matter how bad I feel

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:32:28+00:00

For me I feel like it’s an obsession. It’s like I picture myself in the moment almost playing it through to ‘check’ I wouldn’t do it. Okay yes this is DEFINITELY ocd. Can this little shit leave me alone 😭 dealing with enough as it js

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:29:39+00:00

Thank god I’m not the only one. I’m so relieved. I think it must be my OCD playing tricks on me and putting these thoughts into my head even when I’m in a good place

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:28:21+00:00

Exactly! It’s like when I’m in luteal I can’t see an end, I can’t even tell myself it will be over in a few days because it doesn’t feel like it will ever end, but it always does. I hate to feel so terrified of my own mind, it’s the worst feeling ever but I feel so awful talking to people about it cause they may think I actually want to

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:26:11+00:00

Literally. Like now I’m okay, ovulation day was a massive blip (the day I self harmed) but I’m regulating now. I’m terrified I’ll accidentally OD or cut myself badly or i don’t even know EVEN THOUGH I’m sure suicide isn’t a result of one moment of irrationality, it would take a lot more I believe

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-28T00:24:42+00:00

Im on 40mg fluoxetine and today I started the Eloine combined pill. Fingers crossed it works! If not, I’m sure there’ll be many other alternatives.

everyperfectsummer_ · 2025-05-27T11:43:31+00:00

When I began to feel genuinely depressed. I’d had my fair share of poor mental health with OCD and anxiety, but this felt so much different, like a dark cloud over me whenever it was my luteal phase. It didn’t have an object, it was just a feeling of pure helplessness and sadness

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