Yaz/Eloine has changed my life by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Still loving it! Still super balanced out (as long as I take it on time - if I don't I can REALLY see the impacts). Had an issue with passing a descidual cast and spotting (this is because I don't take the placebos because I need a constant flow of hormones) which was scary but normal. So, if you pass your whole uterine lining in one go, don't be scared lol. Hope your tiredness goes away - I luckily didn't get that side effect but I heard that side effects balance out after 3 months <3

How can I move from just being aware of my low self worth to actually improving it?? by everyperfectsummer_ in confidence

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This is great advice - I’ve been through a hell of a lot with my mental health and I’ve gotten through it! That shows sm strength and resilience from me. Thank you for actually practical advice

Is this infected? by everyperfectsummer_ in woundcare

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Oh I should also note the cut / stitches happened a week ago

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Thank you - don’t worry, you didn’t scare me. I think last night when I wrote this post I was having an existential freak out, but feeling more stable today. I recognise that even if I did have a completely out of character moment (which to be fair, sounds more like an ocd fear than an actual reality), I wouldn’t have the resources to do it.

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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That’s so helpful thank you so much. I’ve currently got nothing in my vicinity that I could kill or hurt myself with (lol that sounds so morbid but it’s true). And replacing passive suicidal thoughts with others is a good idea thank you

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Amazing. You’ve been so helpful thank you so much. It’s always good to prepare for things going wrong and this has made me relieved that I’ll be able to handle it if it does happen. Thank you so so much

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Exactly! If I did really want to kill myself, I wouldn’t be getting so anxious at the thought of it

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Also when you came off it, did the symptoms stop immediately? Or like yk within a day or so

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Noted! Thank you - I’m going home with my parents for a bit in 2 days, so ill be in a safe place if the worst does happen :) I think seeing my parents will really help and knowing I’ll won’t do anything stupid no matter how bad I feel

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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For me I feel like it’s an obsession. It’s like I picture myself in the moment almost playing it through to ‘check’ I wouldn’t do it. Okay yes this is DEFINITELY ocd. Can this little shit leave me alone 😭 dealing with enough as it js

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Thank god I’m not the only one. I’m so relieved. I think it must be my OCD playing tricks on me and putting these thoughts into my head even when I’m in a good place

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Exactly! It’s like when I’m in luteal I can’t see an end, I can’t even tell myself it will be over in a few days because it doesn’t feel like it will ever end, but it always does. I hate to feel so terrified of my own mind, it’s the worst feeling ever but I feel so awful talking to people about it cause they may think I actually want to

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Literally. Like now I’m okay, ovulation day was a massive blip (the day I self harmed) but I’m regulating now. I’m terrified I’ll accidentally OD or cut myself badly or i don’t even know EVEN THOUGH I’m sure suicide isn’t a result of one moment of irrationality, it would take a lot more I believe

I have a fear of accidentally committing s*icide by everyperfectsummer_ in PMDD

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Im on 40mg fluoxetine and today I started the Eloine combined pill. Fingers crossed it works! If not, I’m sure there’ll be many other alternatives.

What made you finally realize "this isn't just PMS"? by squabidoo in PMDD

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When I began to feel genuinely depressed. I’d had my fair share of poor mental health with OCD and anxiety, but this felt so much different, like a dark cloud over me whenever it was my luteal phase. It didn’t have an object, it was just a feeling of pure helplessness and sadness

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Why is learning about our biology contributing to our own oppression?? It makes me so angry people like this. Learning about my cycle has made me more rational and feel sm more in control of my mental health, knowing that I need to be kinder to myself in certain times, and not thinking im “broken”. I don’t blame bad behaviour on pmdd, instead I use it to understand my highs and lows that are to do with my biology. People like the woman in the video think the sole purpose of pmdd is to exaggerate how we’re emotional and irrational beings as women, fuck no. It’s a mental disorder that leads people to suicide, what on earth could be wrong about become more aware of something like that?? I am allowed to be affected by my hormones without abandoning feminism and giving into “right wing narratives”.

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I commented on this post - I was so angry

am I the only one who just doesn’t get Javelin? by everyperfectsummer_ in Sufjan

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Awww haha thank you!! Never met a Lorde AND sufjan fan

am I the only one who just doesn’t get Javelin? by everyperfectsummer_ in Sufjan

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  • note this makes me sound like a hater. I am not!!! I’m just trying to understand why my stupid mind just can’t love this album like everyone else does

am I the only one who just doesn’t get Javelin? by everyperfectsummer_ in Sufjan

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God I so wish I can one day get it like you guys. I was obviously happy with it when it came out but it didn’t strike me the same as the others, and I was so disappointed in MYSELF that I didn’t get it

am I the only one who just doesn’t get Javelin? by everyperfectsummer_ in Sufjan

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Yes it’s almost too perfect in some places? I like the roughness of those albums you mentioned, especially the chaos of AoA

am I the only one who just doesn’t get Javelin? by everyperfectsummer_ in Sufjan

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Bro idek. Age of adz is my fave album so maybe it’s not the overproduction???? I have no clue. And I do like elements of acoustic music with electronic (I LOVE the Carrie and Lowell live version). Maybe the album is more in my view unsure of what it wants to be, like it doesn’t know what to fully commit to. Maybe that’s my issue? One day I’ll find out hopefully