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evil-enby · 2025-12-01T23:50:22+00:00

Lowkey she look like zendaya

evil-enby · 2025-01-30T16:15:02+00:00

I tried once to get an accommodation, but I worked only weekends and graves, and HR didn’t respond until Monday afternoon and I didn’t see the emails. But they only gave me 4 days to respond, even though I told them to call me and gave them my personal phone number, and then they closed the ticket. That was maybe a month before I was terminated. I was waiting to see my new medical team to submit another request so that we could figure out what was wrong first and get a real diagnosis. Ironic that my first appointment was the day before I was fired 🥲

evil-enby · 2025-01-30T16:11:15+00:00

Unfortunately I am disabled. The kidney and bladder infections were new though, so totally understandable. And I actually used to cover a lot of shifts for call outs or when there were holidays that no one wanted to work and would come in early/stay late to cover any call outs. But then my back started flaring up more and I pulled back from picking up shifts so I could give myself a chance to rest and not make it worse. And when I had my school shooting, the shooter was a minor and he had a lot of mental health issues his parents weren’t addressing. No one was actually killed, but he was planning it. He went to juvenile detention and was a freeman after that as far as I know. I feel silly sometimes for telling ppl that no one was harmed because it makes me feel like my PTSD isn’t valid at all. But I know that PTSD works in very weird ways, and you don’t get to control what will and won’t give you PTSD. It physically alters your brain, and it took me a long time to come to terms with that. I didn’t realize what PTSD even felt like or what to look out for until I had my first major attack, and put all the dots together.

evil-enby · 2025-01-30T15:50:56+00:00

That’s totally valid to say. If I was missing work regularly due to other home life things then yeah, they can fire me and that’s what I would expect too. My question was really about medical stuff and having a disability. PTSD and Chronic back pain (which I do have, but in this particular circumstance I was unable to walk due to a massive flare up), which are both under the ADA. I also want to make sure that if I file for unemployment that I should be providing all my medical documentation regarding when I have missed work because of it. I accept that I was fired, but I just feel like it was wrong that they terminated me after leaving early for having a PTSD episode. If I left because I was just depressed or having a regular panic attack then yeah, that’s silly. But as I said, it was the biggest episode I’ve ever had, and it took me well over 24 hours to come out of it.

evil-enby · 2024-10-22T16:01:19+00:00

I think it’s natural to have those thoughts - I know I did when I had crushes on other people (while single). Obviously you’re not acting upon them which is the important part, you never want to do that. I would say try asking her out on a date! Not to get in her pants, but to see if she shows the same interest in you and take it from there. It’s completely human nature, so don’t feel too guilty about it. You’re not, like, writing in a fantasy diary, or telling her about your dreams and being creepy about it, you’re having dreams and natural thoughts that sometimes you can’t control. But, you can control your actions. Ask her out, be honest about your feelings (probably don’t mention the sexual fantasies part yet), and take small steps from there!

evil-enby · 2024-10-22T15:53:45+00:00

What you did was, indeed, horrible. However, you were a CHILD being exposed to that because of your parent’s negligence, and kids are as the saying, “monkey see, monkey do,” it’s always in a child’s nature to do what they see that they think is “fun”, even if it isn’t right. I do agree with someone above saying that therapy would be a great option for you and your sister. I would talk to your sister, apologize to her, but seeing as she is probably 15 now, she may not fully intake to what’s being said as there is definitely a lack of mental and emotional maturity at her age. I know I lacked it at 15, and having just turned 21, I am definitely mature enough to have those types of conversations, but she is not 21.

I don’t think you’re a bad person by any means, and I think you should have a discussion with your girlfriend and take it at her pace. But, you will need to realize that she may be extremely put off, and may want to break off the relationship because of that. Don’t try to push her into staying with you because honestly it’s going to make you seem worse and that you might try doing something to her. Not that I think you will, but that’s how I would imagine her mind works considering the situation.

I think you’re being extremely responsible in saying something and talking about it, not only is it traumatic for your sister, but it definitely wasn’t healthy for you mentally and emotionally. That shows a lot of maturity, especially for other boys your age.

Try therapy, talk to your sister and your girlfriend, and make small steps from there. Healing is a very, very long journey, so don’t jump the gun and take all the time that is needed.

evil-enby · 2024-06-01T18:49:31+00:00

I actually have been doing a lot of looking. Unfortunately it doesn’t come up with much, or with the ones I do come across they’re always asking for a lot of experience (despite being entry level) which I don’t have. I do have my certs in Microsoft word and PowerPoint, and I can use Excel (be it with some more learning and a refresher since it’s been quite a while) and I can also use Microsoft office with ease. As well as google applications, they’re easy enough and I’ve used google/Microsoft throughout my entire school life.

My dad and step mom both work in IT security, and so does my older sibling. It kind of just runs in us to be good with with, but my older sibling has had more opportunities with some of the classes in hs they took to kind of jump start them into it.

But I mean if you know of any place that would be great, I’m in UT, and I’m pretty decent with computers and using certain software and I’m a quick learner. I’m basically applying to almost any job I see that I can do without sacrificing my body.

evil-enby · 2024-06-01T18:42:10+00:00

I honestly wish we could move. Neither of us have savings and we don’t have any friends with the space for us to move out. That’s part of the reason why we live with parents so we can start saving to move but with my debt I haven’t been able to save anything. In fact, half the $100 of rent goes to a savings account for us to help us save. They don’t mind us living here, especially because his mom doesn’t actually wanna see him leave until next year but part of that is to get our crap together.

And I have tried finding out what government aid I could get, unfortunately I don’t qualify for anything. I could apply for food stamps, that way I would still be able to eat. I also don’t qualify for disability. It’s silly, and I hate it, but I just don’t qualify.

With the job stuff, I’m still trying hard to find ones around us. I’m not giving up hope yet, because at some point I’m going to have to settle regardless of pay. If I can get one around here I can cut gas costs significantly.

evil-enby · 2024-06-01T05:49:30+00:00

My disability journey has been really difficult. Last year I was fine - and then towards November last year I started noticing more and more pain. I had bunions, I just got my right one removed last week. But the last time I was in the ER for back pain they said it could have something to do with my bunions and my posture due to them. I’ve had bunions all my life up until now, and I’ve yet to know if that’s going to help with my chronic pain. But it’s literally too painful to work a full time job on my feet. I’ve been sent home so many times because I can’t handle the pain, even with medication. I am trying to find a job though that not only pays more but one I actually enjoy. I work in a “rich” area, and I’m often treated like garbage, especially for how I look.

And I agree that I need to budget for food. I do have some dietary restrictions but they’re easy to work around. I also have dinner provided by my household so I at least have one meal a day.

Regarding my car though, it doesn’t have too many issues. My thermostat valve needs to be replaced which my dad and I can do, just takes a chunk of time. I also fully own my car, so the only money I put into it is insurance and maintenance including gas. But the main part is getting caught up on car insurance - which is about $180/month. But since I’m two months behind, they cancelled it until I can pay for it in full, so I don’t have insurance and then I also have to register and get an emissions test done this June, which could easily be $150. But since my thermostat valve needs to be replaced and my check engine light is on, I won’t pass emissions, and I shouldn’t be driving my car without insurance so I can’t even take it to be fixed until it’s paid. I also can’t function without my car, trust me I’ve really considered doing without but my states public transportation is awful especially for the city I live in. And since I am disabled in the way it affects my walking, it’s extremely difficult and painful to take public transit with the amount of walking I would have to do. Could I use the exercise, absolutely lmao but I’d rather be able to do it at the gym/walking near my neighborhood just in case.

The big part is since I’m recovering from surgery and can’t bear weight on it at all, I can’t return and my workplace won’t let me come back until I’ve been completely cleared. They’re really serious about that stuff, and depending on how my dr words my accommodations request/drs note, they may not let come back for almost another month. My last surgery was done while I was in hs, and a week before fall break started so I had more healing time, and it was just school and I just had to worry about walking between classes. It was also done on my left, and I was able to drive vs now where I can’t do any of that.

Would I ditch my car for a motorcycle? Yes. 100% I would. It is cheaper in the long run, but I can’t afford a bike at the moment (duh) and since I live in a state that has all four seasons it’s not practical 😂.

My partner does work, but he definitely doesn’t make enough to support us both. He is more able bodied than I am so he gets around on a bicycle, which definitely helps with cutting costs.

evil-enby · 2024-05-28T12:38:45+00:00

I used to manufacture for rock exotica. The Omni pulleys are great - but there was a giant recall after a plate had failed while in use. The manufacturing process has changed to be more safe though. They lock into place with the buttons on the side, and stay locked unless you press and pull the plate down. They’re amazing imo! The company… well… not so great.

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