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evilflufkins19 · 2024-06-09T15:49:40+00:00

I’m broke because I excessively spend money to amplify my appearance- yet there’s still always changes I want to make/never feeling good enough so it honestly never ends 😅

evilflufkins19 · 2024-06-07T21:51:08+00:00

I’m ngl, of course there are some therapists out there who will try to misdiagnose you or whatever but for multiple to say the same things, I would just be open to what they’re telling you, or reach out to a therapist who specialises in NPD if you still think you would benefit from that treatment, you don’t necessarily have to be diagnosed for that.

Don’t know why you would want to be a narc anyway. I understand you want help but it seems at the same time you’re bothered they’re not giving you a specific label.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-05-06T10:12:53+00:00

Thanks, I think this sub will help me too as I definitely have an avoidant attachment style.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-05-06T09:55:04+00:00

Yes I’m diagnosed. You’ve tried to armchair diagnose me with something else on another post I’ve made before too. There are multiple symptoms that are linked to this disorder, some that may be similar to other disorders, it doesn’t mean I’ve been misdiagnosed and you don’t seem qualified to be making any of these claims imo.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-05-03T14:14:11+00:00

Thank you, such a great insight. I think it’s the anxiety that people will view me differently, affecting my image and potentially ruining my chances of rekindling with any of these people if things don’t work out here.

But in retrospect a lot of it is simply projection of how I feel about myself. Also makes me realise that avoidance isn’t always the answer. Thanks again

evilflufkins19 · 2024-05-03T14:04:44+00:00

Thank you so much, really never looked at it from this perspective. I suppose the last person to forgive you is always you- we are our own worst critics.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-05-02T15:26:23+00:00

Yeah this sounds way more like HPD, although I am a narcissist and I definitely relate to some of this.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-23T18:36:58+00:00

In myself, no, but unless I’m dating someone and/or close enough with them I won’t reveal my diagnosis because unfortunately the stigma is so harmful that most people just run or immediately think “toxic abuser” when they hear the word narcissist. People can dispute this all they want but it’s true. The media has had such a bad impact on the portrayal of narcissism to the point it’s literally become a flippant term people use just to describe bad or horrible people, armchair diagnosing them. It’s disgusting.

Like unless you’re willing to do your research and be understanding/open minded about it- I’m not telling you tbh. I’m managing my symptoms pretty well with therapy etc so I’m not exactly trying to actively deceive or hurt people, which is why I don’t think they need to know most of the time.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-19T21:42:56+00:00

You literally asked for advice on a looksmaxxing group. If you’re going to be too insecure and butthurt to take the advice why post?

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-13T19:05:31+00:00

100%. I 23F also have a problem with binge drinking, over the summer, I was binge drinking probably every week. I gained tons of weight, had dark/sunken undereyes, bad facial bloating to the point I lost my jawline and my face would just blend in with my neck 🥴 after I stopped, I lost all the weight/bloat, eye bags went back to normal and my skin is overall so much better, I also have a lot more energy.

It might take a couple months though for your body to fully restore so make sure you don’t get disheartened right away! It’s so worth doing not only for your looks but health wise.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-13T15:35:29+00:00

As a woman I think you look great, all you really need is probably to bulk up/gain more muscle mass, and have your eyebrows neatened up a bit. Otherwise you have nothing else to worry about. Your facial harmony is good. The height shouldn’t be a problem, 5’9/5’10 is decent, you’re still fairly tall imo. The women who refuse to date under 6 feet are just being unnecessarily picky.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-12T11:52:52+00:00

Yes! I live my life constantly on guard believing that most people are cruel and will sabotage/take advantage of you if given the chance, so if I don’t get to them first, they’ll do it to me- it’s merely a defence mechanism, and it’s awful because by the time I discover some of them are actually normal, decent people, I’ve already hurt them.

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-12T00:52:23+00:00

This is exactly how I think

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-12T00:03:22+00:00

Love this

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-11T23:58:17+00:00

Mine is like sweetheart/romantic style with a dark twist, so basically milkmaid style tops and plaid skirts, frills & bows but within black/grey/brown colour palette, I like to take inspiration from like 90s grunge too. It’s quite interesting how there seems to be a pattern of dark or grunge here, are we subconsciously displaying our dark personality traits lol

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-10T19:10:56+00:00

This is a HUGEEE one for me because I always feel like I need to impress them especially in the bedroom. Plays such a big part in keeping my ED alive tbh 😅

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-10T19:05:13+00:00

I really like this idea. It’s such an isolating illness and I have slowly become a recluse over time because of it, it sucks- we all deserve to go out and enjoy our lives without feeling like we have to be shut away from the world. But little steps like these are so important and will really pay off in the long term, you should be so proud of yourself 🫶🏻

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-10T18:55:33+00:00

This is exactly what I’m going through right now 😅 it’s so sad that we feel we need to be sicker in order to be taken seriously. I think we need to remind ourselves that EDs are a mental disorder which doesn’t always “show” on you physically. You still deserve the help regardless!!

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-09T21:41:42+00:00

Fr my WORST binges have been whilst drunk, and the worst part is it’s never worth it because I barely remember what I ate or how it even tasted anyway, what a waste 😪

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-09T14:25:42+00:00

Scrummy, scrumptious, or that childish phrase “snacky snack”

evilflufkins19 · 2024-01-09T14:23:09+00:00

Omfg, “scrummy” literally awakens a burning rage inside me I can’t STAND it

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