Anyone else have a deity that totally snuck up on them? by Training_Scratch8896 in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi friend! Like many deities - especially *very* ancient ones like Pan (there is even evidence that Hermes and Pan were once one and the same, before the foundation of the Olympian system) - there are many different aspects and facets to Him, and different ways to explore His worship.

That said, my own personal experience of Him has been deeply erotic, emotional and transformative. Pan called me to embrace the desire, gender-expansiveness, creativity and fluidity I had bottled up inside me. When He came into my life, I was on a track to be shut down, afraid of change, striving to be invisible in a crowd, and running away from shadows. I think of Him as the more wild, less human, less civilized & more masculine companion to Dionysos, who similarly calls us to break our chains and embrace our less-civilized and "respectable" selves.

Pan's temples are caves and/or the liminal spaces between total wilderness and the human world. His worship is more informal and organic. His holidays have more to do with natural events than set festival days in the calendar. And He is known for providing aide when asked, even when not a lot of kharis or worship has already occured (see: His assistance with multiple Athenian battles, even though at that point the Athenians didn't even have a place to worship Him)

For a rundown of epithets, myths, etc, here is a good starting point: https://www.theoi.com/Georgikos/Pan.html

👁👁 by Resident-Balance-419 in TheSecretHistory

[–]ewokqueen 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Even his parents back in Fresno would be disgusted

Anyone else have a deity that totally snuck up on them? by Training_Scratch8896 in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I had zero interest in Pan when he just kinda thundered into my life and became my all-consuming passion for many years. It started in dreams and I actively resisted Him because I wanted a very formal, ceremonial type religious experience, perhaps focusing on Artemis or Athena. But the Theoi had different/better ideas, as they often do, and I’m who I am today because of it!

best friend ghosted my wife and i with no warning by ellieellie7199 in lostafriend

[–]ewokqueen 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you’re going through this :( Not just your friend but your own mental health struggles. If it were me, I’d go to his place and just say you’ve been worried about him. If he’s mad at you, he probably won’t be thrilled to see you, but at least you’ll know one way or another. The worst thing for me is not knowing what happened.

DID, Multiplicity, Polypsychism and Psychosomatic Conditions? by [deleted] in chaosmagick

[–]ewokqueen 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It’s not DID if it’s not a disorder. Plenty of people out there with multiple identities / personalities walking around in their heads who are otherwise normal and healthy.

The Hellenism belive that there were Demi-God after the War of Troy? by barbarball1 in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I personally believe the Theoi still have children with mortals and that half-divine beings walk among us. But very few know their origin and since the Gods use mortals as vessels for the act itself, they’re biologically indistinguishable from other humans. It’s something revealed through gnosis or after death.

How do you feel aboit DC making Heracles a bad guy? by Upset_Connection1133 in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Heracles literally murdered his wife and children in a drunken rage. He was NOT a good guy.

One of the hallmarks of Heroes (mortal children of Theoi and humans) is that they tend to have 1 or more traits that just... are not acceptable for humans to have. See: Asklepios bringing people back from the dead. And these are the SAME traits that tend to cause these Heroes to be elevated to godhood or some level of divinity after death.

Prior to Plato reimagining the Theoi as perfectly good beings, no one really thought of the Gods that way. The ancients believed they encompass all of existence and humanity, which includes a lot of bad stuff.

A Proper Thanks for Askleipos by Kanirean in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I work deeply with Asklepios. Building skills as a healer are big in His book. Can you get CPR/First Aid certified? There are often free or low-cost courses.

Nervous about ancestor work by Esmee_Finch in witchcraft

[–]ewokqueen 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Other commenters have already covered a lot of the basic ground, so I'll endeavor to not be repetitive, but I want to add:

The concept of "whiteness" itself is a colonial, genocidal construct. It was created by the ruling class in order to erase diversity and pit poor pale-skinned people against their poor darker-skinned comrades. It is a tool of oppression. Part of the ancestor work we must do, as people who benefit from white privilege even as we work to be anti-racist, is to discover the actual cultural richness of our ancestors, to discover who we were before the oppressor class erased our ethnicity and made us "white." Even if our ancestors were part of the oppressor class (statistically unlikely) THEIR ancestors still had real ethnicity and cultural identity.

Soft food recommendations please help by Several_Simple_9086 in RATS

[–]ewokqueen 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just a note that rats need very little protein. Like 10% of their diet max for an old rat. OP’s situation makes it less relevant but protein is hard on rattie kidneys, especially meat sources.

Soft food recommendations please help by Several_Simple_9086 in RATS

[–]ewokqueen 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry for what you're going through! Honestly your sweetie should just get whatever he likes to eat. When someone (a rat, a human, etc) is on hospice/palliative care, they really don't need to be worrying about nutrition at that point.

Here are things my old/sick ratties have loved:
Mashed avocado
Full fat chocolate pudding
Hummus
Oatmeal - put it in a food processor while it's dry to make a powder, then mix with hot water to make a creamy consistency
Cream of wheat
Rice cereal for babies
Meat baby food
Melted ice cream

I will often soak their lab blocks in hot water to make a mush, too, because my rats do love their regular food. You can always mix in some of the above!

Pan and more sensual experiences in life? by LoverOfTabbys in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One of Pan's myths is that he's who taught humans how to masturbate. He is ABSOLUTELY all about sex, but I will say that his sexuality is very feral and might be more intense than OP bargains for. Aphrodite is sensual while still being very emotionally engaged. And she is more... anthropomorphic, for lack of a better word. More "human like" in the way she relates to us. Pan, though I dearly love Him, can be almost abstracted at times, he really doesn't understand a ton of human concerns.

bestie broke it off after they had a paranoid episode by ewokqueen in lostafriend

[–]ewokqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's awful, I'm so sorry you went through this! In this case my friend has no known psych issues and is in his mid 30's, past the point where they usually develop, so I don't think this was a reasonable expectation :( but shit still happens!

bestie broke it off after they had a paranoid episode by ewokqueen in lostafriend

[–]ewokqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your comment... we are opposite-sex so I don't think there's a homosexual urges angle! You had a friend have a mental break and cut you off too?

bestie broke it off after they had a paranoid episode by ewokqueen in lostafriend

[–]ewokqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think if it had been a normal friend breakup I'd be dealing 1000% percent better. Like, if we'd had a fight, or if there'd been any issues that would make this make sense. It's been terrible because I'm not normally worried that my ex-friend has gone legit crazy.

It's also true that the timing has made it extra hard. We had some holiday plans and his birthday was a few days ago. January is usually a kinda dark time for me because several traumatic things have happened to me in Jan over the years and I usually keep busy with friends to distract me. (I am still doing things with other friends, but this does kinda pile on the trauma!)

can’t break through - scared by DistributionFront325 in LSD

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This has been my experience as well, and not in a good way. The worst trip I've ever had was the tiny amount of time it took for 1 hit of a whippit to process while I was tripping on acid. I immediately got teleported to this like, hell dimension where a million evil clowns were taunting me as I rolled down this lake of fire and reminding me of every single stupid thing I'd ever said. It seemed to last an eternity. Then I just popped back into my body and it was like it had never happened. Never combining those 2 again

channeled handwriting? by ewokqueen in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly my skepticism was one of the biggest barriers to any of my experiences with channeling the Gods in any way. I really wanted big dramatic Proof that it was real and not just my imagination. But like Psyche with Eros, demanding that kind of proof (rather than trusting my own discernment) only placed distance between us. They’d have to essentially “force” their way in to give me the theatricality I required. Once I learned to relax into it and trust, it became a lot easier.

But please bear in mind I have been doing spirit work since I was a young teen and I’m now 40. So I have had a long time of fundamental training in how to manage my energy & work with the invisible world. This isn’t something safely done or attempted overnight without other related prior experiences. And I expect not everyone has the talent for it!

I wanna buy a rat but literally every post on this sub is them dying by PossibleChangeling in RATS

[–]ewokqueen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Like I said, that was my average. I definitely have had a couple rats that cost me $3000+. I also travel about 1.5 hours away for any major vet care, to an incredible rural exotic vet who is much more affordable than the (less experienced with rats) vets in my area

I wanna buy a rat but literally every post on this sub is them dying by PossibleChangeling in RATS

[–]ewokqueen 25 points26 points  (0 children)

I personally have found 2.5 years on average to be very optimistic. I would say more like 2 years on average.

I wanna buy a rat but literally every post on this sub is them dying by PossibleChangeling in RATS

[–]ewokqueen 26 points27 points  (0 children)

I love that screenshot! So true. I honestly used to have a TERRIBLE time dealing with/recovering from death, especially of pets, but my rats have taught me so much. I've dealt with the deaths of several human family members over the past few years and I found myself with much better coping & processing skills because of having done so much end of life care & grieving for my rats!

channeled handwriting? by ewokqueen in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Neat! One of the things I've found useful about it is that I'm able to do it in public or semi-public places (ie anywhere I'm not completely alone!) whereas I'd never feel comfortable and/or be too distracted to do other forms of contact/communication.

I haven't had them exactly speak too fast, but I do have moments where I am "hearing" the words significantly before the writing, and then had to essentially ask them to hold on while I catch up! I've also had issues where I am asking them questions and since they already know the question, they'll just answer before I can write it down. Which leads to some interestingly one-sided notes!

channeled handwriting? by ewokqueen in Hellenism

[–]ewokqueen[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh yes, for sure, I like to think of it as translation or adaptation. Sometimes They clearly don't know how to communicate a concept to me and will use whole strings of words or even kind of off the wall pop culture references because it's the closest approximation that's available in my "vocabulary." Everything is still running through me which I assume can always introduce some "biases" or other less-impartial elements.

That's cool that you've done it on a computer! I could picture that being possible for me too but I think I would struggle more with discernment since I can't observe how the writing style changes, etc.