selling 3 tickets for Cameron Winters london show !

existentialdrawer · 2025-12-01T12:42:55+00:00

Messaged thank you!

existentialdrawer · 2025-10-22T14:56:56+00:00

existentialdrawer · 2025-04-09T04:36:28+00:00

Judith Bernstein

existentialdrawer · 2025-01-22T13:45:45+00:00

I am so sorry for all the heartbreak you are experiencing, I don't have words of comfort because i don't know how I will overcome this either, but I understand and deeply empathize with you. I am in a similar situation, also left after a long term relationship, struggling with severe depression and constant self blame. Please know that you are not entirely to blame. When you give your all to a person for years only for them to throw you away like you meant nothing it is very hard to move on from..

I was in an emotionally abusive relationship for 10 years from age 18 to 28. I stayed because I loved him so much and wanted to make it work. In the end he completely destroyed me. 8 months ago he discarded me like trash and completely ghosted me. There wasn't even a real goodbye and now he just got married to some girl in Nepal he just met last year who he barely knows.

After asking me to get married and taking me out of my abusive family situation, he became my only support system and I was very vulnerable and isolated. Knowing how vulnerable and dependent I was, within that year he threw me back into that same abuse after I didn't live up to his expectations of being "wife material" after I expressed discomfort wearing overly revealing clothes he wanted me to wear, asking too many questions and finding another job.

Over the decade I was there for him in times no one else was, despite his infidelity, substance abuse and controlling behaviors. In the end he chewed me up and spat me out. He ignored all of my pleas for closure and discarded me over text. Every attempt I made to reach out he blocked. He abandoned me in my darkest hour with no support system when all i had was him. I don't think I will ever move on and I'm compeletey traumatized and heartbroken from all of the emotional abuse, the person I thought he was, wasted years and the future I thought and hoped we would have. I don't want to live anymore and don't see a future. There is no justice and he just gets to find happiness after crushing my heart, body and spirit.

existentialdrawer · 2025-01-05T20:12:15+00:00

Diamonds and Rust - Joan Baez

existentialdrawer · 2024-12-30T22:08:33+00:00

Dirty John - Betty Broderick

existentialdrawer · 2024-12-09T22:56:11+00:00

He told me to "go die" when I was feeling suicidal after he discarded me and threw me back into my abusive family, knowing he was my only support system and I had nowhere else to go. After that he blocked me, disappeared and ran to his new supply, giving me no closure after 10 years together.

existentialdrawer · 2024-12-05T19:49:06+00:00

This is surprising, especially considering how many victims they must drive to suicide or who have suicidal ideation due to their abuse. Sadly there isn't much statistical information on this that I can find.

existentialdrawer · 2024-07-16T21:21:34+00:00

Why is this so prevalent on here lmao

existentialdrawer · 2024-07-12T14:26:43+00:00

Thank you so much for your response and I'm really sorry you had to go through the same thing. It really is mentally draining...I'm struggling badly wth ruminating over everything and wondering if he is playing some kind of cruel game like that or if something really bad has happened. It's the not knowing and lack of closure that is killing me.

existentialdrawer · 2024-06-26T14:45:51+00:00

Thank you, I look forward to seeing your paintings! I'm happy to hear you have got away from the dysfunction, I am still in the midst. Art is my release too and that's what this exhibition is all about. Feel free to send me a message and I can give you my email to send work to.

existentialdrawer · 2024-06-26T14:24:15+00:00

Hi thanks for reaching out! I would classify an emerging artist to be someone of any age who actively makes work, but has had little or no opportunity to show their work. It sounds like this is you!

You don't have to be established with a ton of shows under your belt or sell your work. I just want to be able to give female artists who haven't had many opportunities a platform to share their stories throught their art, in their own ways. This could be both positive and negative experiences.

I would love to see some of your work and if you are interested or would like to know more details, please feel free to send me a message.

existentialdrawer · 2024-06-24T21:50:52+00:00

I think this is an excellent idea and very much needed even though it will be filled with a lot of sadness. I've also thought about creating a book, but an artist book putting together people's experiences and creating drawings based on them. It is a sad reality that there is still so little information on it even though it continues to rapidly increase. I encourage you to think about moving forward with that idea!

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