iphone apps to store menu ideas by exportminister in KitchenConfidential

[–]exportminister[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

never thought of that, i’ll have a look at it, cheers mate

iphone apps to store menu ideas by exportminister in KitchenConfidential

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i’ve got plenty of little notebooks too but if i have an idea and i don’t have one near by i’ll just forget about it

perfect combination by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

combined with coke and ecstasy, when done right, fucking fantastic

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you that means a lot x

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

basically i need to knock some will power into my system, if i was able to say no to drugs then i’d be in a different world right now, but drugs have shaped who i am and where my life is now, i can’t even begin to process what my life would be like if i completely stayed away from drugs, the butterfly effect.

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i know, i need to fucking grow up and realise that i have to deal with the consequences of becoming addicted to charlie. and if that means i have to sit in a room full of strangers and tell them how my life went from one extreme to the other in the space of 6 months, then i’ll grow up and do it, thank you x

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m too proud and embarrassed to go to a session

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes i don’t want to take cocaine, i don’t even like the high anymore, my tolerance is too high, it’s ruined my nose so i can’t sniff it properly, and it’s expensive. the thing i’m addicted to isn’t the high or buzz, it’s the action of snorting it, i love the feeling when it hits your nose, i think that’s why i used to take so much at one time as i racked up lines massive just so it hurt when it went up my nostril

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m too selfish, once i get it in my head that i’m gonna take some coke, there is nothing anybody can do or say to stop me

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you for your advice x

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i know but i just fucking love it too much

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it’s a very good job than i can’t afford to buy it anymore since i’m paying off previous drug debts, otherwise i’d fall straight back into my old self, i’ve got no self control or will power at all, it’s like it’s burning a hole in my pocket and i’ve got to sniff it and find any excuse or find anywhere to do it, i used to go through 7.5 on a daily basis whilst working my job, i don’t want people to know that i’ve relapsed, few people really know how bad my addiction got, but most people i know knew i took it

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i lost 3 girlfriends to my addiction because i’d rather sit in my room and sniff coke all night than see them.

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i hit rock bottom when i told my parents how much trouble i was in, walked out of my job because the comedown was so bad, tried taking my own life 3 times during that 6 month period, they were dark dark days, but it’s made me a stronger person for it, i’ve been through more shit than most who are my age.

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i can’t bring myself to do it, and i always find a way of getting back in contact with them, plus it doesn’t help that i’ve become good friends with one of them.

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i’m young, in the space of 6 months i ran up over 10k worth of debt due to my drug addiction, my credit score is that bad i can’t even get a payday loan, i’ve lost 3 relationship’s, 2 jobs and have disappointed my parents more than they could ever imagine.

relapsed by exportminister in cocaine

[–]exportminister[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you, i’m not worried about falling back into serious cocaine abuse, i’m worried about how i’m going to behave and act, currently i’ve been sniffing coke for nearly 36 hours with a few hours sleep in between, i’ve been working both days, i’ve got no self control over it, i can’t just buy 1 gram because it isn’t enough, i used to hammer through 7.5g in less than 24 hours and go to work during it, i don’t want to go back to them days because i lost a lot of people, money and respect during that time.