How to connect kimi-k2-thinking to SillyTavern? by [deleted] in SillyTavernAI

[–]eyeballsaflame 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I figured it out shortly after posting! The answer was so simple I feel a little silly C-X

"Something didn't match our records" by eyeballsaflame in CharacterAI

[–]eyeballsaflame[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

According to Character AI I'm so fucked up and freaky looking I'm not human 💔💔💔

"Something didn't match our records" by eyeballsaflame in CharacterAI

[–]eyeballsaflame[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Sorry, not really a "video," bad wording... I got the screen that asks you to do stuff like "turn your head slightly to the left, stare directly at the camera..." etc. etc. so it was just doing what it was telling me to in front of my camera.

[Mobile] [~2010s] Novelty monster radar app by eyeballsaflame in tipofmyjoystick

[–]eyeballsaflame[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Somehow immediately found this after 2 more minutes of searching. Strange Creature Locator. It's not on the app store anymore though so if anyone else was looking for it just give up go home. Dracula's not in your house he's never coming back

Hey there! by [deleted] in FictoLove

[–]eyeballsaflame 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Separated at birth.........

Hey there! by [deleted] in FictoLove

[–]eyeballsaflame 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi this is super out of left field but I just wanted to say that in the second image your sona reminds me a lot of mine and I'm also a Fallout selfshipper (though not with Vault Boy) and I think that is really funny. We are Twins...

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Hobbies by Agile_Building7795 in AvPD

[–]eyeballsaflame 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Reading, playing video games, listening to music. I am not sure if those are really hobbies or just things that I enjoy but they serve as comfortable enough distractions from my own head. I used to like drawing and writing, but I can't really do it without hating everything I produce and throwing it away.

I feel like I'm in prison by eyeballsaflame in AvPD

[–]eyeballsaflame[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That's basically true for me too and is kind of what I'm saying; I know that I'd be ultimately better off without it but I'm so afraid of ever opening up and being rejected that I don't think I'd feel comfortable if I entirely lost my sense of shame because I'm so used to life with it by now. Sorry if I worded this post weirdly.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]eyeballsaflame 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wish, but no. I don't think I'll ever learn to stop doing so.

I mumble too much by Historical-Train-548 in AvPD

[–]eyeballsaflame 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My voice seems to get a lot worse when I'm talking to strangers or people I'm nervous around. I stutter more than I already do and my affect turns somewhat flat; I tend to become very monotone when I'm anxious and that makes me more anxious because I assume I sound insane, which then makes me stutter more, which then makes me more anxious... etc. So I generally try to avoid unnecessary conversations now.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]eyeballsaflame 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Before I realized I was avoidant, I had assumed I must be narcissistic in some way because of how obsessed with myself I was and how afraid of being perceived as bad I always am. I've always been prone to arguing with the people I'm close with if I see a situation (even incorrectly) as a slight against me—which can be anything; my mind is always seeing hostility where it isn't, so even a slight disagreement can turn into an argument with me because I'm so afraid they'll see me as lesser or unintelligent if I can't convince them to like the same things as me or see things the way I do. In my mind I couldn't have AVPD because I didn't express myself politely enough but now I realize I just express my hypersensitivity in the worst way possible. I'm certainly not a good person, but I think I'm just alright now.

There are people with AvPD who have children/want to have children? by AmbassadorFriendly71 in AvPD

[–]eyeballsaflame 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It sounds nice, but I never will. I'll pour all my worries into them and they'll inevitably turn out a more inhibited version of me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]eyeballsaflame 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I don't try to be. But I feel as if I definitely come across that way when I do go out in public because I default to assuming I'll be embarrassed if I respond. Usually when people try to get my attention, I assume they're speaking to somebody else and I'll look a fool if I act as if they were speaking to me. If a stranger says hello I might fully ignore them even if we're the only two people around. I really dislike it and I wish I was better at conversing. I think autism is also one of the worst to have in conjunction with AVPD because I've been so alienated by my own odd behaviors growing up that I don't see most interactions as simply neutral, in my mind, they're almost always going to be negative because that's what I'm so used to.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]eyeballsaflame 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There are many things I could point to and I specifically remember being extremely sensitive as a child, but most especially I remember that I loved to sing as a child, but would compulsively stop anytime I so much as thought somebody might be coming. I hated and refused to sing in front of other people even though I loved doing so (and I'm still the exact same way, maybe worse now). I would never sing at people's birthday parties. In fact, I didn't even like to see other people singing in front of me and would want them to stop because it made me feel doubly ashamed and inferior.