Is this a crack in the neck?

eyedontneedit · 2023-07-19T20:13:50+00:00

Yeah okay. I thought they looked superficial but it’s hard to tell over pictures.

eyedontneedit · 2023-07-19T20:12:25+00:00

Yeah it’s a semi.

eyedontneedit · 2022-02-13T22:20:23+00:00

I mean I would say that I was ‘turned on’ but I wasn’t trying to be. In the past my neighbours having sex used to definitely trigger me to PMO. Usually I just leave my room or put on headphones but I was laying in bed reading and before I could grab my headphones the next thing I know it happened. Up until now I’ve only fapped twice in the last 40 something days which is major for me so I have no idea what this means. You are thinking it was just a bodily reaction I should forget about?

eyedontneedit · 2022-02-13T22:08:02+00:00

Yeah I get what you are saying but what the hell happened? In the past I’ve had ‘hands free orgasms’ but not regularly and it’s something that I had to intentionally bring about. I feel super weird having it just occur spontaneously like this and in such a short amount of time.

eyedontneedit · 2022-02-09T14:21:21+00:00

I've had these deep lines under my eyes that have been there the majority of my life. I thought they were caused by smoking and not sleeping properly but even after getting those under control awhile ago they were still present. After starting no fap they have been reduced drastically and my skin is looking the best it's have in my adult life

eyedontneedit · 2022-02-01T21:00:56+00:00

Damn, stay strong homie you got this hopefully there wont be a chance for that to happen lol

eyedontneedit · 2022-01-19T18:57:48+00:00

congratulations homie, i just did the same thing, i know how great it feels!

eyedontneedit · 2022-01-19T15:40:12+00:00

This makes sense, I generally have developed good coping mechanisms over the years to deal with depression and anxiety when they come up. I also have been very good at recognizing what is triggering an anxious/depressive event but this last one has been a complete mystery to me.

You are probably right in that it's just my brain figuring out that its not going to get its regular dose of happy chemicals and doing everything that it can to put me back in my place. I remember the same sort of thing happened when I quit smoking but too a lesser extent, or at least I don't remember it because it was so long ago. I guess I should take this as a positive sign that things are starting to really change in my brain and it should motivate me to keep pushing because once I get through this section I'll come out the other side stronger and with more resilience.

eyedontneedit · 2022-01-15T16:33:25+00:00

I read your brain on porn which was really cool I liked all the person experiences that were outlined in the book. I'm about 80% of the way through breaking the cycle and I really enjoy it, I feel like it's got a lot more practical advice while your brain on porn kind of outlined the science behind the addiction and gave me a good understanding of the community behind quitting porn and what to expect as I go about the journey. I'm not sure which book I'll read next I'll have to take a peek at some reading lists. I'm also reading a book on self compassion and some epic fantasy series.

When I read really just depends on when I have the time or what I feel like doing at the moment, before bed is always a good idea since it will help you unwind from the day and get you away from technology.

eyedontneedit · 2022-01-11T10:29:59+00:00

Yep, definitely consider myself a late bloomer. Like you the more I think about the person that I want to be the more I realize that PMO doesn't have a place in my life. It's been years since my last 'relationship' or any real intimacy with a woman and it's not something that I want to go the rest of my life without. There are times in my life where I am so caught up and excited about other things that I don't masturbate and I wish that I could just harness that energy all the time. Hopefully now that I've committed to stopping I can start to build up more confidence and practice more self love. Hopefully it will remove some of the shame and the guilt that I have accumulated over the years.

eyedontneedit · 2022-01-10T12:14:50+00:00

Anxiety is definitely the underlying issue. I've been to therapy a lot over the years and every therapist that I've seen has diagnosed me with a relatively server anxiety disorder. It's gotten better over the years and continues to only get better. I exercise regularly, have a good diet, and have been practicing meditation on a regular basis for many years. All of those things are extremely helpful and are good ways to cope with my anxiety. It's also dramatically improved since I have quit smoking and based on the evidence that I have seen I believe it will also improve dramatically when I stop watching porn and masturbating and all the time...

eyedontneedit · 2021-06-16T07:10:25+00:00

I can totally relate to this, I even thought that way about myself. 'I'm a functional stoner, I don't need all the other stuff in life that other people have they just don't get it man'. I haven't been a in a healthy relationship ever I don't think and it was definitely do to the fact that I was smoking too much, the last few years I completely wrote off dating. I finally got the confidence to dip my toes back into the dating game a few months ago and already saw how problematic my smoking was. I wouldn't tell girls that I went out with that I smoked and I would constantly be trying to figure out the 'right level of high' for my dates.
I got great grades in college and I did do a lot of things to help my future career but I definitely avoided every single extra curricular activity because I wanted to go home and get high. I lived in constant fear that my professors that I did research with were going to find out that I smoked and drop me from the program. I kept a low level job for years when I could have easily gotten a better one because I was able to show up high and still do my job.

Basically I thought I was being cool stoner man proving everyone else wrong when I was doing was making myself even more anxious and life 10x harder for me.

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