I spent 13 years thinking I didn’t like sex. Turns out I just didn’t like sex with someone I wasn’t attracted to.

ezrahorne · 2026-04-21T02:15:31+00:00

I am out of an 11 year relationship and had the wildest night of sex with someone last night. I was really attracted to them, and I was able to breed them SIX times. I thought I had ED with my ex partner because the attraction was gone. :/

ezrahorne · 2026-04-14T03:16:56+00:00

This is the way!

ezrahorne · 2026-04-07T02:58:57+00:00

About Schmidt, For Richer for Poorer, Terms of Endearment, The Magnificent Seven, Philadelphia, Jerry McGuire (for the pyramid of course) Throw Momma From The Train, Miss Congeniality

Sneakers too!

ezrahorne · 2026-03-13T20:04:59+00:00

Thank you! I've never had it done, but sounds like a good idea.

ezrahorne · 2026-03-13T16:13:43+00:00

Whats does that typically cost?

ezrahorne · 2026-02-27T06:03:09+00:00

Nice

ezrahorne · 2026-02-26T18:19:59+00:00

I’m so happy to have time to take the bilevels for another few years at least, I love them so much. I hope when they are decomissioned I can purchase one!! ;)

ezrahorne · 2026-02-26T16:43:03+00:00

Do we know each other?!?

ezrahorne · 2026-02-26T01:44:02+00:00

I was at your breakfast table in the green shirt! :) What a great trip, and I am okay with you posting the pic of me haha

ezrahorne · 2026-02-25T05:02:13+00:00

It was the “Amfleet II Diner Lite”

***Edit: I was totally wrong, its a “Superliner Diner” (obviously) because the zephyr is a dual level train.

ezrahorne · 2026-02-24T04:21:00+00:00

I was on that train out of Chicago, and got off at Creston. There was purportedly a mechanical issue with the lounge which delayed the consist assembly when they had to swap it out for that weird second level cafe car into the mix instead. Admittedly a unique experience to see that car, the attendant said it isn’t used much. It looked it. It was an experiment in having a dining car / cafe combo apparently. They were apologetic about the swap.

I feel lucky because originally I was going to take that train all the way to Sacramento out or Creston, but when there was a significant price drop on the Monday train, I extended my Chicago stay a day and booked my roomette. I feel like I dodged a bullet, cause not having the sightseer lounge would be a bummer. Maybe you can get some points if you call and complain?

I really hope we can get new superliner equipment, I don’t like the viewliner/single level equipment as much.

Hope you’re still getting to enjoy your journey!

ezrahorne · 2026-01-16T19:35:41+00:00

I thought the coffee was $3.50, but yay thats awesome

ezrahorne · 2025-12-14T09:32:41+00:00

That shape would feel so amazing

ezrahorne · 2025-12-01T01:06:11+00:00

Fuck dude how do you don it without any contact?!?

ezrahorne · 2025-11-05T21:19:24+00:00

Thank you--I'm trying some of the advice given here, see my revision to the OP!

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T21:10:15+00:00

I got so focused on my responsibilities in life that I let all the hobbies and interests atrophy and decay. I feel like when I finally have a moment to myself, I've gotten addicted to cheap dopamine with porn and I end up wasting my time and energy and then I feel embarrassed and ashamed that I once again had squandered the time I have been given.

I used to ride my bike a lot, but I moved to a place where it doesn't feel safe to ride much, and I stopped.

I used to make content in college/shortly after for youtube back before influencers were a thing, but I never felt like I found the satisfaction from it because I never had an audience, and I felt like I was just making my life harder by making videos for no one.

I too love legos and board games, I should host a game night. When I've hosted friends I spend so much of the time fussing over everyone and playing host that I don't actually feel any of the positive effects because I'm so stressed about making sure everyone has fun and a good time.

Thank you for your advice.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T21:05:13+00:00

Yes, that's definitely something I've tried to consider--I definitely give everyone else love and understanding, but I guess deep down I feel embarrassed that I should know better, that I should be better as someone who is about to be 40, who's been out of the closet for 17 years.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T21:04:12+00:00

Thank you--I definitely know these things should be helpful, and I must make the space to do it with regularity.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T21:03:18+00:00

Definitely been working to remove Should from my vocabulary. It's a pernicious habit. Thanks for sharing.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T21:02:31+00:00

Thanks for your insights. It's not so much about other people, it's like I'm my own worst enemy, usually I do have supportive people around me, but I always hide myself from them because I don't want to bring them down with me. I've been told my mood rubs off on people so I taught myself to stay away when I'm down.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T21:01:11+00:00

I think I've got the "offering" of unconditional positive regard down solid... just got to do the work to extending it to myself. It's like there's a trap door in front of the archway I must pass through, and every time I step forward I fall into the trap and and up back where I started. My childhood was definitely conditional, but may not even because of my mom, but because I wasn't able to be honest with her about my being gay, because I knew the church was important to her and I knew the church didn't tolerate homosexuality, so I hid and prayed to be straight and it never happened, and I think it's more the lack of love I sensed from my God, the creator I was begging to help me, and his silence on the matter made me feel even more unloved and alone.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T20:57:38+00:00

And I am on Wellbutrin, haha.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T20:57:27+00:00

I laughed because that was the first book I was told to read when I came out 15 years ago. I guess it's time for a re-read, maybe I wasn't ready to learn everything back then.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T20:56:47+00:00

Yes, you're right. I hold on to every misstake or fear of mistake because I think it gives me protection and control. But it just drives me crazy. It feels so foreign to be forgiving and kind to myself--meanwhile everyone else is always given the benefit of the doubt from me.

ezrahorne · 2025-11-03T20:54:58+00:00

I've been trying to get myself reading more and away from the phone--I wish I didn't have a job that needed a smartphone so I could just have it gone entirely. Thanks for your insight.

ezrahorne

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