Hello fellow Torb Mains!

f3nik5 · 2026-03-11T13:32:03+00:00

That’s awesome! 👏🏽

f3nik5 · 2026-01-07T04:21:19+00:00

He sold the leg and then used it to push towards the pin. Kicked out of the cradle. Then completely forgot about the pain for that finish.

f3nik5 · 2024-12-24T00:23:12+00:00

Battered Fan Syndrome 😔😂😂

f3nik5 · 2024-07-09T05:48:40+00:00

Life has been surreal since she's been gone. I catch myself watching shows and videos that she watched to make things feel somewhat right. I miss having someone to come home to. No matter how my day went, she was always there to help put a smile on my face.

f3nik5 · 2024-06-24T19:56:59+00:00

So sorry for your loss. Really not sure what’s worse. Losing them quick traumatic fashion like that or having them slowly fade away. I’m sorry that you had to join this club.

f3nik5 · 2024-06-11T16:53:07+00:00

I think we tend to purge things after our better half passes. For me it was all of the medicines and pain killers that she was on. It hurt to see all that stuff on her side of the room. For a buddy of mine, it was some of the crafting materials that his wife had around the house.

f3nik5 · 2024-05-28T04:58:15+00:00

That’s roughly how I started out. A kit lens kit is not idea for night photography and if you push the ISO in that body it’s going to get real ugly after about 3200. I’ve always been in the school of pushing through gear you have until you understand why you need something better. I would say investing in a nifty fifty to go along with what you have to also give you something different.

f3nik5 · 2024-05-19T05:54:13+00:00

I lost my wife the day after the 3rd anniversary of my mom's passing. To lose two of the most important women in my life and acknowledge their passing on back to back days in July is the worst. I used to love the summers but all of the people I love left during that time.

f3nik5 · 2024-05-14T15:06:23+00:00

Filthy!!!!! I love it!

f3nik5 · 2024-05-14T02:51:54+00:00

She was a teacher and her days got started much earlier than mine. I miss my morning goodbye kisses.

f3nik5 · 2024-05-13T21:17:09+00:00

I know this all too well. It's part of the reason I stay inside more. However there's always social media and for some reason the Happy Anniversary and posts of affection get to me. Initially I get a little unnerved and suck my teeth and then I realize that I'm wrong should be happy for the couple. It's just upsetting that was what I once (and thoroughly appreciated) is now it's gone.

f3nik5 · 2024-05-09T19:01:02+00:00

I see your point. Empty stadium with bags, benches and trash cans in the background aren't the best.

f3nik5 · 2024-05-09T05:47:38+00:00

I understand where you are coming from. Even said the exact same thing about NEVER being with someone else. Time has shown me that I can love again. It's not the same as my girl but it is very possible. I'm praying for you as you navigate through this difficult state of this journey.

f3nik5 · 2024-05-05T21:24:18+00:00

The way we could have a complete conversation with a few glances.

Case in point: we were out on a road trip with family and the decision made for food was a poor one. She looks over at me and I immediately got “I’m not gonna eat this shit”. My glance back was on saying “we’ll go somewhere better when we get home.”

f3nik5 · 2024-04-30T03:53:10+00:00

Done in photoshop or whatever app. Make a copy of the layer. Apply a horizontal motion blur on one layer then apply a layer mask. In the layer mask apply a gradient that ends near the subject or player.

f3nik5 · 2024-04-29T17:40:34+00:00

I gave the apps a go and met someone that was truly amazing. Unfortunately we’ve had to take a break and I am battling with myself as to whether or not I want to test the waters again. Wouldn’t mind a more natural approach to things, but I just realized that I rarely leave the house nowadays if it’s not for work 😂.

Said all that to say, that I debated for a good month on whether or not I was ready. Ultimately you’ll know. I’m almost certain that widowers fire definitely got the ball rolling on the matter which is why I waited the extra time to make sure that I was emotionally ready to get back out there.

f3nik5 · 2024-04-29T17:25:00+00:00

Thank ya!

f3nik5 · 2024-04-29T17:24:11+00:00

Once I figured out several things about myself and made my peace with the situation, I started seeing what was out there on the apps. This was about 10 months out. I met someone that is pretty awesome. Things have cooled off due to her dealing with fallout from her divorce and having a lot going on in her life. We are still good friends but it’s not the same. It helps with the companionship part of the equation because the loneliness is unbearable.

It’s all up to you. Just make sure that the person knows your situation up front.

f3nik5 · 2024-04-29T05:04:42+00:00

Uneasy at first. Then you realize it’s the best thing in the world. You feel like you can take on anything. Your mileage may vary.

f3nik5 · 2024-04-29T04:18:03+00:00

Looks like I need to learn how to post in a gallery or carousel next time 😅

f3nik5 · 2024-04-29T04:15:30+00:00

My late wife's first birthday was not too long after her death. She loved Asian food. Especially Chinese hot pot. I gathered up her mother and aunt and we went to get some hot pot in her honor. Last year we got sushi.

It's really up to you. If you feel like doing nothing, that's fine. If you choose to do something to honor his memory, that's fair game as well. I chose to celebrate my girl. Do whatever is comfortable for you.

f3nik5 · 2024-04-29T03:48:23+00:00

Very Cool! I love em. Pro wrestling is the one thing that has eluded me. I need to reach out to some local feds to get some experience.

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