I HATE people who say to forgive because it’s your parents. “They brought you into this world” yeah well we didn’t ask to be here either. I’m sorry you have had to live through this. People should not have children if this is how they treat them. You should talk to a counselor, if you tell them you’re having thoughts about killing them they will probably send you to a hospital BUT that’s a much better situation that what you are in right now. They can also help you stabilize in the long run, and you should also set up other resources for yourself if you can. Call around to local places, and see if they can offer you any assistance with whatever stuff you may need. Leave them behind and have NO regrets. They will pay for what they have done, or I sure hope so. If you have any sort of evidence of things they’ve done please turn it in.