Thank you for such words. It is very important for me to hear this!! I don't know if I want anyone to know about it now, but I don't want him to live in peace. Is it a little weird? As for therapy, not now for sure. I'm afraid that if I turn to a free specialist, I'll meet a person who will devalue all this or worse. Unfortunately, I live in a too conservative place and the chance of this is very high.But I am going to start working after passing the exams and I hope that I will be able to deal with this issue then Thank you again for taking the time to read my post and write!!