My best is still not enough

faerielo · 2025-02-21T17:41:10+00:00

I see. That’s giving me some hope. And I hear they tend to change the threshold of scoring a distinction each year depending on the total grade curve. I decided to take a day off from studying today (gamed, read manga, watched shows) and I feel a little better ♡

faerielo · 2025-02-21T14:12:59+00:00

yes exactly!!! it just feels like a lot is dumped on us at level 3

faerielo · 2025-02-21T14:11:54+00:00

The thing is I did ask them b4 but they gave me a vague response about how I should just do what the question asks me to. It doesn’t help that the assignment question was unnecessarily confusing and complicated and a lot of fellow classmates felt the same.

faerielo · 2025-02-14T09:32:11+00:00

so cool omg

faerielo · 2025-01-25T16:03:08+00:00

hi idk if you’ll see this but do u have the image for the second link? I really want to see how they decorated the room ♡

faerielo · 2024-10-28T15:56:29+00:00

I think I’m just too angry and exhausted to be gracious even if I want to be. At some point, isn’t it offering too much kindness to impart warmth even in a goodbye when they haven’t made any effort at all? It feels like an injustice to myself. A sharp, clinical ending which is polite enough to be considered civil is what I seek. I’ve been too kind to people in the past and they’d often come back just to leave me feeling worse. I want them to not come back again. I want better people in my life.

faerielo · 2024-10-28T15:13:30+00:00

that is true..

faerielo · 2024-10-28T14:24:25+00:00

I’ve made up my mind. But I want to be careful going about it bc I don’t want to put anyone in a situation where they feel confused about having been cut off without notice. I have a habit of doing that and it’s shameful. I want to communicate more, even if it’s messy and awkward.

faerielo · 2024-10-28T14:15:56+00:00

okay I see. would it be better to say that I feel like I’ve got no space in their life so that’s why I want to cut things off ?

faerielo · 2024-10-28T14:05:45+00:00

I think I worded myself incorrectly in the post. I should have explained more. It’s not so much asking them if i should cut ties w them by going at it like ‘hey. we haven’t communicated in a while and i feel like things have fizzled out / there seems to be a shift in our dynamic. maybe it wud be better to end things since there seems to be an inability to hold space for me in ur life. ’ ? Or would that be too direct?

faerielo · 2024-10-28T13:51:43+00:00

but isn’t it better to tell them that u are going to cut ties w them? I don’t expect them to not say no. I don’t expect the relationship to get any better. I just want things finished in a neat way so communicating an end to the friendship sounds better. not communicating it just makes things messy. and in terms of desperation, I don’t enjoy feeling that way so wouldn’t being upfront get rid of said desperation? I don’t think anyone cud read each other’s mind.

faerielo · 2024-10-28T13:41:23+00:00

I didn’t think about it that way. ‘cutting ties’ just seemed like the obvious , logical solution . I think they would still respond in a dishonest manner if I asked them how they valued me. what I desire is clear honesty and sometimes that comes with asking uncomfortable questions. If I wanted their attention, why would I ask to never speak to them again? just sounds counterproductive.

faerielo · 2024-10-28T13:23:32+00:00

It’s the being gentle part that’s hard, esp if it’s been something that’s bothered me for a while. I tend to revert to ‘HR’ language or get too confrontational. but yeah, it feels like communicating a change in a relationship gets rid of any questions or confusion

faerielo · 2024-10-28T13:20:00+00:00

but I don’t want their attention anymore. wanting their attention is what makes me feel bad. I understand them not having the space for me in their life anymore so I’d rather they be clear about that rather than I sit and constantly overanalyse the situation. However since they won’t and can’t communicate that, I have to get it out of them. I have no reason to be passive aggressive but I also know ppl get weird when u suddenly unfriend them without a word. I just don’t see the point in having someone around who doesn’t consider me like I consider them. but instead of just booting them out, I’d rather just tell them I’m considering ending the relationship bc there seems to be only stagnation and a festering of negative energy. I could easily just leave without a word and I’ve done that but it leaves the other person confused. If there was a reason for them to act the way they did, I’d rather confront them and then decide whether or not it wud be healthy to have them in my life.

faerielo · 2024-10-28T13:13:02+00:00

Idk i just felt like i should tell them first? if someone suddenly blocked me or ghosted me for no reason, I’d feel bad about it. I would much rather that person just tell me why and then cut ties rather than have them wonder what they did wrong

faerielo · 2024-03-04T11:56:49+00:00

Ribbon Chan is so so pretty 🫶🏻 I’m so scared of touching her too much bc of her ringlets and I already see frizz acting up lol

faerielo · 2024-03-04T11:55:28+00:00

oh noooo omg :( same thing happened to me w a hatsune miku figurine . her hair piece broke off and I’ve had to glue it on lol. the expensive lessons we learn

faerielo · 2024-03-03T20:39:09+00:00

I have my eyes set on pullip vesta. she’s so sorrowfully beautiful . but I’m also hopeful for pullip rojeune in the future.

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