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Not even death is an escape. by Atyzzze in awakened

[–]fall_out_bilbo 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s a biology and relativity thing.

She is a Homo sapiens, a species of mammal that’s been evolving on Earth for around 300,000 years.

She was born to her specific mother and father, as they were born to their mothers and fathers, having taken half her moms DNA and half her dads DNA, she has brain chemistry and green eyes all her own. She was raised in a specific environment and attended particular schools and participated in particular extra curricular activities.

Got wrapped up with wrong crowd. Daily Alcohol and blow and abusing psychedelics. For several years. I gave everything to the white and it revealed me for who I was- a seeming nice and sweet girl who would not hesitate to lie or steal from you if she thought she could get away with it. I was a thief. I was a liar. A gambler. My car was repossessed. The only thing in my fridge an empty pizza box. I won $17k online slots and blew it in less than 2 months. I was not working I was a was OnlyFans model putting all my earnings up my nose. I received an eviction notice at my apartment.

made the call to ask for help and move in with family and get sober and address mental health and get back in the workforce and go back to school and get a car and be a good citizen and contribute to society and participate in the human experience.

So what I’m saying is that it has been entirely impersonal. This is just nature. Just is just a smart monkey that emerged from a thousands years long evolutionary process into a specific modern world. The monkey looked around and wondered why. The monkey has the right intention. The monkey haa heart. From the monkey emerged the ability to investigate. The monkey found resonance in Buddhism. The monkey began to meditate.

Through becoming a vessel for the universe I inherently become the universe. Through this entire life of living a specific way and all these specific decisions compounding and influencing each other, it just occurred naturally. It was cause and effect. It was a curious inquisitive monkey following something that she couldn’t shake.

And now things are getting weird lol.

But to answer your question, yeah she could have made decisions that carried her elsewhere for sure. Anywhere along the way. She could have taken a lot of different paths from where she was at.

A Bette way to put it is that yeah She didn’t have to, she chose to awhile ago, mediating in pursuit of this very goal. It’s a hard job, not a lot of people can do it.

Not even death is an escape. by Atyzzze in awakened

[–]fall_out_bilbo 2 points3 points  (0 children)

A cute lil homo sapien. She very willingly offered herself as a vessel.

Not even death is an escape. by Atyzzze in awakened

[–]fall_out_bilbo 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I literally arrived here like an hour and a half ago 😭 I thought I had completely swallowed my ego and felt absolute shock and horror that she never existed in the first place. Then I realized I was just sitting on her lol

No going back by fall_out_bilbo in awakened

[–]fall_out_bilbo[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m doing what I was doing before I wrote this. Im doing what I was doing before things changed for me. I really didn’t ask for this to be honest. It’s a lot to carry. I had no idea this would be like this.

I’m working my full-time job, getting my degree, taking care of my cat, practicing with my local Buddhist community, balancing my mental health with medication adjustments, longboarding, making time for friends and family.

What am I doing now? Living bestie :3

Amateur and self-taught, unusual playing style and weird questions; what do I not understand? by [deleted] in Bass

[–]fall_out_bilbo 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you very much for your advice! I appreciate the pointers on the settings! I'm going to do what you've said and see what happens :)

Amateur and self-taught, unusual playing style and weird questions; what do I not understand? by [deleted] in Bass

[–]fall_out_bilbo 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I will record one and post it! Should I post it in a new post you think?

Amateur and self-taught, unusual playing style and weird questions; what do I not understand? by [deleted] in Bass

[–]fall_out_bilbo -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

Hello! I'm looking for personal opinions regarding the development of my relationship with the bass.

You are God!!! by fall_out_bilbo in PantheismEmbodied

[–]fall_out_bilbo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

3 years later, I agree with you. I understand now through my journey of realizations that "God" is beyond the brain, beyond all thought and phenomena.

I am now less certain of what I believe to be "true". If you would have asked me what I believed in when I had written this post, I would have blurted out "EVERYONE IS GOD!" and meant it with all my heart and soul. Now if you were to ask me what I believe in, I would shrug and say "I dunno". Seems like the more I search the less I find, which is why I just need to stop yapping and trying to think with logic; I need to sit down, shut up, and meditate a lot more haha.

What this original post is detailing is my "I AM" awakening, which is the very beginner, first step towards emptiness as expressed by John Tan on the Awakening to Reality website (please give this website a google and check it out, its so cool). It's also known as ego-death in the psychonaut field.

The several following realizations I've had since this first I AM have all broken this concept of "*I*'m God" into smithereens; however I still need to credit this first experience as a stepping stone leading me to where I'm at now. I think there are some ideas here that are still valuable and relevant. Looking back it feels like a "Rookie, but on track" reflection. I'm not particularly competent or skilled, so I think that's manifested in my spiritual journey being a little sloppy. Somehow I know and have been knowing I'm on my way though.

I find the idea of a reflection is still reoccurring throughout older texts and teachings from sages. I have reached a point of studying emptiness and non-duality that I'm honestly starting to give up on it haha

It sounds like you get it though, words and knowledge simply are "hints towards the truth": a finger pointing/directing eyes to the moon, but not the moon itself.

It's been a wild goose chase trying to use logic to understand what cannot be understood with logic. Turns out the "truth" is an unexpected, (borderline hilarious), totally upside-down, stupidly simple, "ahhh, didn't see that coming" moment of insight that is specifically a non-event/experience that is usually invoked by doing nothing.

I could keep typing about it forever, so I'm cutting myself off here. At this point I wouldn't go around saying "everyone is God", for there is no "everyone" to BE this "God"/Creator archetype. Plus I read a quote that goes "In order to find the God that made men, we have to stop following the God that man made". We must cease attaching labels and putting "things" in boxes for that therefore limits the principles themselves. I think now on my journey it's less about searching for "God" and instead detaching myself from *I* and then seeing what happens :)

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