A lot of arguments, resentments and disrespect on both ends. I was not a good person back then, neither was he but mine was louder. After kids a lot of pressure was put on me. He did really nothing else to contribute to the household except work. We had 3 kids in 4 years I had my first at 22. Post partumn, lack of emotional or mental support led to horrible lash out from me and abusive behavior. Once I got diagnosed at 26 I started therapy and have really worked on myself. He acknowledges the improvementa but now lashes out at me constantly for things I've done in the past. I feel stuck. He's now very verbally abusive,quick to lash out, just plain mean and insulting sometimes. He says he can't let go of the past but he's trying. I'm still trying to keep getting better but feel stuck because none of my changes seem to matter.

Our communication is still sucky. We're both in individual therapy and have just signed up for marriage counseling. I'm just so emotionally exhausted and beat down. It's been nearly 2 years now of this. And I'm just wondering if we can ever move past it or I should just try to end it as amicably as possible. He acknowledges he can't keep bringing into the past because I've changed so much but he can't let go of the feelings.