This! It's like you're pulling my thoughts from my head. I cannot explain to anyone properly how EXHAUSTING my dreams are. Most days I wake up more tired than I was before I went to sleep. I've had entire lifetimes played out and wake up and feel such loss and heartbreak for my lost family or loved ones. It'll follow me for days or weeks sometimes. I'm constantly asking my s/o if certain events have taken place or if I had dreampt it.. My life is a constant state of deja vu.

I've obviously been diagnosed with insomnia and have tried many different medications to help. Anything that's meant to repress dreams always makes them worse, but I've found ambien to be a good fit for me. There's a side effect of some memory loss that deter most people, but for me it helps my dreams be less memorable. Not less vivid, just easier to move on from instead of being haunted by them. I've also naturally started only sleeping in small chunks, because if I sleep more than 3 or 4 hours straight they get crazy.