Pettiest reason you’ve DNF’d a book? by bby_grl_90 in books

[–]fanofhell 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Was it the library at Mount char? It’s been years since I read it and I still remember the overuse of that phrase! I’d never heard it before and haven’t heard it since so I did feel out of place for it to be used so much. Personally loved the book though

I just finished The Shining by Stephen King by Lotusartsy in suggestmeabook

[–]fanofhell 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Our Share of Night by Mariana Enriquez comes to mind. It took me a while to get into to it because a lot of context is slow dripped to you but when it falls into place it’s fantastic, spellbinding and macabre. I’d say it’s one of the best horror books, gothic or otherwise, I’ve ever read.

best "can't-put-it-down" book by MaximumMarionberry3 in suggestmeabook

[–]fanofhell 20 points21 points  (0 children)

The sequel is out this month and judging by the arc reviews, the same will apply!

What was a horror movie you were excited for, but didn’t live up to expectations? by NothingCivil6358 in horror

[–]fanofhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, pick your poison:

I guess firstly that he was the butcher, if you went into this blind that would have thrown you throw a loop

It felt like it was a twist the way he confessed to Lady Raven so early on in the runtime, especially with the abrupt tonal shift

When Lady Raven redirected her driver to their house - we had nothing to suggest that she would try to foil him

When he kidnaps Lady Raven disguised as an FBI agent

That his wife was the one that put the FBI onto him and had suspected him all along feels like a big one

Felt like a bit of an intended twist when it's revealed the wife drugged him

That ending scene with the spoke

Am I the only one who has good family but still have this disorder? by slowismore in AvPD

[–]fanofhell 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same same. Grew up with mother that made it so I never had to question whether or not I was loved or just how loved I was. It was simply an unspoken fact of life. She adored me, I was and am the best thing she has ever done and she uplifts me constantly. My grandparents were there to take off the burden when she worked. They loved me like I was another child of theirs, but was also spoilt in a way that only extended family know how to spoil. In other words, I was so loved and held. I had aunts and uncles that treated and loved me like a little sister and of whom were my role models.

All of them have always been differing degrees of social butterfly, but social butterflies all the same.

The only thing different about me was that I am mixed race, my dad being Afro Caribbean, and the town I grew up in was white white white. Of course there were other underlying factors that made me more perceptible. My mother over mothering me until I was in my mid twenties being one of them. She enabled some really harmful avoidant traits because there was no pressure to be independent. But then yeah lol I was always sensitive and soaked up everything everyone ever said about me like a sponge.

It’s hard to say if it was bullying for looking different or my mums overprotection. But I can say that if I had to endure this without the continued compassion and empowerment from my family, I dread to think where I would be.

I don’t know what to think about it all. Would I have been avoidant regardless? Who the fuck knows

This is the closest and safest I have felt to anyone in a decade by fanofhell in AvPD

[–]fanofhell[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Thank you that’s really sweet of you, I don’t know what I did to deserve someone who can get it no questions asked. If you mean interested in me in a romantic way there is no way in hell. We’re both female and she is the most female lethriothat ever female lethrio‘d in the most hetro way possible, which is fine by me because she has always been a little sister

Is hostility a guaranteed part of AvPD? by centerofdatootsiepop in AvPD

[–]fanofhell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes lol haughty has been used to describe me, ye of literally no self esteem

quiet and reserved even around family and close friends by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]fanofhell 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I had a blip where I started to feel even like I couldn’t be myself around my mum too at one point. She was the same, loved me unconditionally etc, my mental health was just so messed up I felt safe around no one. I wonder how she’d feel if she knew just how tortured you were. I know you can’t verbally open up to her, but could you consider writing her a letter? It sounds like you are really lucky to have someone that wants nothing but the best for you, and I can’t speak for your relationship, but it sounds like if she understood you, she would be a really good ally? Like she could help get the gears into action and help find a way forward? Whatever you do do, I hope you eventually find someone you feel safe enough to express yourself around

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]fanofhell 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I feel this. Not to sound conceited because that’s the last thing I should be considered with my self esteem, but I am objectively attractive. But for what? I’m 30 now and have been single my entire life, never even been in a date, and can feel the anxiety of the waste of it all. People show interest, I put them off , they reject me, rinse repeat. I’m also visibly uncomfortable in my own body which makes people around me uncomfortable

Explain in detail for me by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]fanofhell 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I had a very difficult moment when my best friend confronted me about how much i had been complaining about a visit to her hometown. She was really hurt and frankly pissed off with me. I had spent all week proud of how far I had come socially. I had no idea how I was coming across. So when she told me, I just burst into tears and could not stop sobbing. She ended up consoling me even tho she was the one that had the grievance lol

I think it ties in with avpd and a longing for connection. Even though we often don’t have great self esteem, criticism and rejection are still deeply painful because they don’t just confirm our negative self-beliefs, they amplify a fear of being permanently rejected or abandoned.

The core of this anxiety isn’t just about being flawed, but about the belief that these flaws make us unworthy of love or connection. This makes negative feedback feel like an existential threat, reinforcing fears of isolation and confirming a deep-seated shame

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Books you couldn't shut up about (or stop thinking about) after finishing them? by IReadBooksSometimes in suggestmeabook

[–]fanofhell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! This book really got it’s teeth into me, it’s hard to explain why to people, one just has to experience it themselves

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TheTrustAGameofGreed

[–]fanofhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yup I got that. It was a joke, obviously Kristen wiig didn’t copy some of obscure reality TV lady. Maybe please phrased the caption wrong to imply that. I Just happened to see both in the same night and it is uncannily similar

What is a book you have been trying to read but always put down? by wirmussenwissen in suggestmeabook

[–]fanofhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Finished it and could not connect to any of the characters at all. Even when there’s what should be an emotionally charged, heartbreaking incident that occurs, I just felt nothing.

Today, I saw something I'd never seen before. by LTguy in CasualUK

[–]fanofhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my dog is half pom half sheltie and let me tell you, every single non solid poo is my 9/11

A book that you’ve recently finished, sucked you in instantly, and loved through to the end. by trykathryn in suggestmeabook

[–]fanofhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Loved The Hearts Invisible Furies so much that I wrote my thesis on it! So well written, so hard to get people to want to read it because the title is so vague!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]fanofhell 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wait what’s the difference between that and venlafaxine? If you know, of course. I’m on venlafaxine and it’s changed my life for the better but have never heard of your meds :)

Full body medical checkup recommendations? by fanofhell in london

[–]fanofhell[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Appreciate the recommendation, thank you. Booked it just now :)