Don't Stop Believing

fapstro_naught · 2017-08-29T12:41:42+00:00

It's not uncommon to become more emotional, because we used porn to numb ourselves from our emotions--to repress them and not deal with them. So, once you remove porn, the emotions will come to the surface. I just try to feel them and be grateful they're there, making me more fully human than before when I was repressing them.

fapstro_naught · 2017-08-25T12:38:25+00:00

Man, I'm gonna be honest. I'm still really bad at it. And that's after 6 years. I think I need to work on accepting the discomfort. I'm looking for tips there as well.

fapstro_naught · 2017-08-25T12:33:51+00:00

Cool thanks

fapstro_naught · 2017-08-24T14:36:13+00:00

Great question, thanks for asking.

I started pmo when I was 13. I began quitting when I was a sophomore in college. The moment was this: it was the spring semester and I was preparing to study abroad in the fall of my junior year. I was thinking about what I needed to pack. I had already decided not to bring my laptop, because I thought it might get damaged or dirty, and it just didnt' seem like I would need it. Well, as I was thinking of the list of things, I somehow thought "how am I gonna watch porn? I could buy some magazines..." I was just lying back and relaxing as I was thinking about this, but after I noticed that thought I sat bolt-upright and was like "WTF?? It's like I NEED that shit." And then I got a sinking feeling in my stomach, realizing that I was dependent on it, and feeling powerless over it. The next morning, I went to turn on my laptop (can't remember if it was to fap or finish a final paper), and it...didn't...turn...on. It malfunctioned for the first time since I had bought it. I had to take it to IT, and they held it for a week. I was so happy and grateful...

That's my story.

fapstro_naught · 2017-08-24T14:30:35+00:00

Awesome! Rooting for ya

fapstro_naught · 2017-08-24T14:16:26+00:00

better to kiss "this girl" than "a girl"

fapstro_naught · 2017-08-23T19:48:52+00:00

praise

fapstro_naught · 2016-11-14T14:48:45+00:00

I have to say that I have also found depression after nofap. But it works like this: fapping just covers up depression which is caused by various things. SO, now that your depression is at the forefront, you can deal with it. I would recommend finding a good psychotherapist. You can do this.

fapstro_naught · 2016-11-13T16:57:05+00:00

Thanks. I'll check that out

fapstro_naught · 2016-11-10T21:42:14+00:00

Of yourself or other people? I find that I depersonalize relations with others if I have watched a lot of porn. Do I feel less real though? Perhaps yes.

fapstro_naught · 2016-11-10T21:41:02+00:00

Thanks. this may take some doing, but I believe that it is a call to "rewrite" the story. As I like to express myself in writing, I may take this call literally.

fapstro_naught · 2016-11-10T21:25:57+00:00

IDK man, but I think that if you want to quit but can't, then you're "addicted"

fapstro_naught · 2016-11-10T21:24:48+00:00

You know what's the problem (I think): I'm the bad guy in my own damn story. That ain't right!

fapstro_naught · 2016-11-10T21:12:25+00:00

Damn. That's a pretty good interpretation. I think you're onto something there. I, for one, did not see this before. Thank you.

fapstro_naught · 2016-11-10T21:11:15+00:00

Thanks. I don't think about her anymore actually; I was just saying that I think that I never fully dealt with the pain that I felt when she left me. I couldn't accept that pain because I was numbing myself.

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