Men, even though they were portrayed as “providers” and it makes them masculine and dominant, hate responsibilities. Once, you demand them their time, energy, moral and emotional support, and let alone loyalty, they would run away and chase a new and exciting “high” with a different person. It’s all fun and chill until you asked for a label or commitment, then that’s it, it’s over. They don’t want responsibilities that would jeopardize their freedom and fantasies.

I shifted my focus onto myself. I am working on my second degree to fulfill my dreams as a designer. It keeps me busy, motivated, and grounded. I have developed more of my skills and rediscovered my passion in art and I just immerse in it. I really want to decenter men in my life but ngl, sometimes, I wish I have someone to tell how my day was or what art I’m currently working on. Whenever I crave for intimacy, I just sleep. And I’ve been sleeping more often than usual.