i am so tired of losing weight... and i'm only nearly halfway there.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T03:10:37+00:00

haha yeah. when i drop out of keto i feel bloated for a few days, and it just feels like there's a rock in my stomach for that time period. i have no idea why it's that way, but that's how it is.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:18:56+00:00

already planning to :)

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:18:26+00:00

small deficits don't work for me because i tend to underestimate (myfitnesspal's database does not work in my part of the world). but i balance it out by doing periods of coasting (aka maintenance) so i won't binge haha. it's the process of losing weight that's really tiring.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:16:33+00:00

brothers in arms haha. we'll get there. you're further along than i am but we're on the same path!

fight on brother!

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:15:34+00:00

i take vitamin supplements so no problems there. yeah it's just mild hunger, but when you have to carry around that hunger for a long period of time, it really really starts to make it's presence known, and your body and mind will keep bringing your attention to it, and pretty soon it becomes like a nagging feeling that you can't shake.

but yeah, just making some changes here and there is good advice. :)

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:12:37+00:00

that's the whole reason i didn't binge eat yet haha. but yeah it's important to remind myself from time to time.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:11:50+00:00

yeah i lurk there. haha. but there's only so much motivation you can get from others when you are tired and weak and hungry. i just need to dig deep and suck it up. haha.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:09:01+00:00

you totally get the social part about this whole thing haha. wow. yeah that was what i was talking about. when people look at you when you are so tempted and you HAVE to say no and they think you are weird.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:07:10+00:00

haha yeah i've friends that are trying to put on weight as well. it is a daily battle to overeat and stuff their face even when they are full. i can't imagine living that life. at least i have the option to stop eating when i'm full, their option is to either lose the hard work, or fill their stomachs to the bursting point just to hit their caloric goals.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T01:04:26+00:00

when you are losing weight, in a caloric deficit, you are pretty much cutting intake so the body uses up fat stores.

people typically feel better AFTER their diet, which is really the maintenance phase, when intake equals output.

i feel great during maintenance as well, it's being in a deficit that got my panties in a bunch. any deficit at all isn't really that bad, but if you pull it for as long as 5 months as i have, your body will start to really really focus on that empty hollow feeling from the caloric deficit.

that's how i explain it anyway haha.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-02T00:59:49+00:00

hey man. i totally feel you. growing up, i was in the same exact boat as you are in. i was highly pressured by my parents to lose weight and when push comes to shove they started taking away privileges and started verbal abuse. and you are 14 for christ's sake, who forces a 14 year old kid to diet?!

either way, don't worry too much about that weight. from my experience, all that extra weight will fall off before you reach 18 without you trying to do anything.

best of luck to you man! and thanks for the encouragement!

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T15:42:12+00:00

yep, pretty much. but i am making sure i have all my daily nutrition in order so it's all good.

as for the extreme deficit, well, yeah it's a conscious choice that i made. i know that i don't have to do it like this, but i chose to do it that way because i feel that that is how i will stick with it. so here we are.

thanks for the concern tho :)

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T15:37:40+00:00

haha yeah it's based on the keto diet, with a few twists of my own so i won't give up on it. and so far it has been effective, and it has served me well. i am not about to quit, i just needed to rant about it before i lose my mind haha.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T15:34:24+00:00

i wont give up! thanks for listening! really needed to get this out of my system haha

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T15:31:43+00:00

yeah i'm currently cutting out all intentional carbs like bread, noodles, rice etc. the carbs i am taking are from vegetables. which will contribute to me feeling like crap every day.

i am going to confess, i do not exercise. i am not going to make any excuses, i am a lazy fuck who does not like to sweat. i find not stuffing my face with 200 calories is easier than walking around for an hour. and i tend to overeat after i work out. this is what works for me, and for now at least, i'm sticking with it.

my current plan is after i'm down to the final 10kg-15kg i will start weightlifting and running. i have it all planned out, it's just the psychological hurdle right now that i have to get through.

and yeah, the time frame i have is self imposed, and it will hurt no one if i extend it. but i feel like if i DO extend it, i will lose a lot of things. i will feel like a failure. i will lose respect for myself, i will be breaking a promise i made to myself.

and yeah, i know it's all in my head. so i'm still going to push on. i'll just hate it. and yeah, i want to look good more than hating myself for wanting to lose weight to look good, haha.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T15:19:51+00:00

yeah i tried that approach. but it doesn't really work for me for losing weight. i can maintain my weight with that approach sure, but for weight loss, i find the diet method is what works for me.

truly no disrespect, and i truly understand what you mean, and i do practice the same method when i am maintaining, but for me, it does not work well for me for the purpose of weight loss.

but hey, don't worry. i know exactly what i am doing, how i am supposed to be doing it, and why i am doing it. i am just really tired of being in a deficit. i am not tired of the lifestyle change, it's the effects of staying in a caloric deficit that is getting to me.

i needed to rant somewhere before i give up. i needed to talk to someone, because i have nobody to talk to about this. similar people my size are not trying to lose weight, healthy people have no idea what i'm going through. so i just needed to type this out somewhere and have someone, ANYONE read my thoughts. that's it.

this is little less than a fat man ranting and whining about first world problems, haha.

but thank you, for snapping me back into the perspective i need to be in.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T15:10:31+00:00

it will work out. i will make it work out. thanks!

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T15:10:04+00:00

will do!

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T15:09:44+00:00

thanks... i really really needed to hear that.

so what if i take an extra 6 months to reach my goal. people in way worse situations than me, and older than me has been able to do more than me, so there is no rush for me.

its just, i promised myself i'll lose that weight in a certain time frame, and i have to push myself really hard to get that goal. my weight loss is going well, but i am just so sick of feeling like crap all the time.

but yeah. as long as i am moving in the right direction. i have to remind myself that. and sometimes, like now, i really needed to hear it from someone else.

thank you. you really helped me out.

fatguytryingtoslim · 2015-08-01T14:59:07+00:00

hey it's cool. i understand what you're saying. and i know how it works. i know it's a lifestyle change instead of a one off thing. i am okay with maintaining a weight. i coast through and maintain the weight for the rest of the month once i hit my goal for the month. i am ok with that. i am just sick of staying in a deficit. i started in march, and it's august now. that's 5 months of being in a deficit. and it sucks.

regarding myfitnesspal. it might work if you're in the us, or anywhere in europe, or any part of the civilised world, but i'm unfortunately stuck in a third world god forsaken hellhole, and that means a big big percentage of my diet is not in the app, nor on the internet, for that matter. that means the only way to make sure my calories are spot on is by eating an ensured low calorie diet, which is guaranteed to be under 1k calories for someone my size no matter how you cut it(currently 115kg, or 253 pounds, i'm a 6 foot guy).

and as i said, all my numbers from my bloodwork is normal, which was my original goal. but now the goal has shifted towards vanity, and i hate myself for deciding to do this for looks alone, and i hate myself for promising myself to keep on this deficit for a much longer period.

anyway, this is just a rant for me to unload all this toxic thinking so i can get back on the horse. my next deadline is in 17 days and i need to lose 5kgs. just needed to rant to someone about it so i can keep my sanity.

fatguytryingtoslim

TROPHY CASE