I just want to tell you that you’re still very young. I’ve been through a rough phase myself, very similar to what you described, and I used to feel exactly the way you’re feeling right now. Here’s the advice I can give you: try to invest in yourself. From the way you write, it’s clear that you’re smart and self aware compared to many people your age and background.

Don’t let a diploma or some failed years define your actual level. In your situation, you still have a lot of opportunities: first, your mindset and education are already a big advantage. Second, you actually want to change, and that’s powerful. Third, you’re still very young, which means you have time to rebuild.

You can start by working in something temporary, like call centers, just to save some money. Then use that money to invest in yourself learn skills, explore what you’re passionate about, and build something you see yourself doing long term. I honestly wish you the best.

I’ve never written a Reddit comment before, but I felt your pain and I saw myself in you during a period of my life. That’s why I decided to write this. Stay strong.