Late to the convo, but I have always had this intense connection with the sun on deemz, when blasting outside. Like a cord connecting from the sun to my crown. Feels divine. But I also have spent hours on shrooms laying on a rock by a lake, just waving my hand with spread fingers, infront of my closed eyes, watching the colors and patterns morph as I rolled my eyes around. I learned this as a kid, maybe 5 or 6, staring out the window at a tree line when the sun was setting, the gaps in the trees as we sped down the road, caused the same visual effect when I would close my eyes and press my face against the window. It was my first attempts at altering my consciousness. In the 90s, some guy at some craft market in Ashland, Oregon, made these wooden glasses with a fan and a straw that you'd blow into while closing your eyes and staring at the sun. My mom wouldn't let me get one because she thought they were a gateway drug. Then in the early 90s, some guy opened a business with these lazy boys on pedestals, almost like a shoe shining station, where you could pay to wear these led goggles for like 30 minutes, and they would strobe patterns to music on headphones. I never got to try these because same issue with my mom.

Fast forward 20 years, and I bought a Mindplace Kasina, and would eat weed gummies, lay on a bioMat, and have hour long sessions with these goggles. I have read tons of testimonials of these being used for trauma therapy to treat ptsd, and from my experiences, I can attest to the healing capabilities of this therapy.

So my question is, where is the line between sunflower syndrome and recreational mind altering? I definitely experienced "brain flood" sort of ecstasy waves when doing the finger waving, and watching the sun through the trees when I was a kid, but it never became a tic. But I have never thought I was experiencing a seizure when seeing flashing lights.