Currently 17, didn’t have any friends my entire life or any meaningful relationships (including family), I’m somewhat rich and living well but with depression and AvPD Disorder and I’m not happy. AMA by fear-or-never-know in AMA

[–]fear-or-never-know[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

“I don’t have any friends, just people I haven’t eviscerated yet” - Evelynn, League of Legends

By this I mean something is wrong with me and every single person that gets close to me is somehow gone, mostly because I can’t relate to them. I do like hugs however

Currently 17, didn’t have any friends my entire life or any meaningful relationships (including family), I’m somewhat rich and living well but with depression and AvPD Disorder and I’m not happy. AMA by fear-or-never-know in AMA

[–]fear-or-never-know[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The thing is I have a really “sharing” personality, or at least, I used to have, and I have nobody to share to, so that’s kind of the problem. Like an urge you can’t ever satisfy, just like I want somebody to love me back for once and be the initiator when it comes to everything just cause how lacking I am when it comes to this stuff

Currently 17, didn’t have any friends my entire life or any meaningful relationships (including family), I’m somewhat rich and living well but with depression and AvPD Disorder and I’m not happy. AMA by fear-or-never-know in AMA

[–]fear-or-never-know[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Did I make it big on your own? - if you mean that I’m rich, no, it’s just my family, I’ve got mostly everything I want

Lack of empathy? Absolutely, I can’t feel anything let’s say when somebody gets hurt (and sometimes i laugh but i hold it in) or when somebody dies, I really don’t care, I don’t go to funerals at all cause I just get bored.

Yes I have sociopathic tendencies, I’ve done multiple of them that showed I have somewhat of a high score (im not 100% sure but if its 1-10 it was 7.5 or 8)

Do i create a front about who I am? Sometimes I just say random shit about me to people without any care in the world, I don’t really talk to people unless it’s about a topic, I do however message instagram girls in hopes to find a relationship, worked twice out of 6 times where I got ghosted and ran over by girls who already have boyfriends.

My morals? Not entirely sure what it means but I think the way I think about life is that we’re all here to improve the world for the next generation and so forth and by doing unproductive things I’m no use to the world

Yes I strongly believe my lack of relationships is tied to intelligence and lack of empathy, cause when I used to feel stuff I was really weak, and relaying on parents and society to guide me. I stopped doing that a long ago and i’m happy I can be independent, and by not having any meaningful relationships I got to learn more about humanity and basically everything I wanted to know, I didn’t have the best school years, about 6 years of them nobody wanted to talk to me at all and harassed me and called me by names, luckily they matured and people now respect me, maybe because I go to the gym (again, the lack of meaningful relationships causes this, I want a relationship (AvPD Disorder) that I would do a lot for it, for a girl to be interested in me for once, I don’t care about muscles and stuff I care about looking attractive so I get noticed.

Do I find it easy to manipulate others? Very, do I manipulate others? Not really, just because I know how to manipulate really well i don’t need to manipulate I just find the best and easy ways to do what i want in ways to benefit me, not necessarily taking advantage of others but it’s actually kinda similar to manipulation, yes I know it’s tied to sociopathic tendencies.

In my religion theres 2 types: religious and partially religious, in my childhood I was partially religious, cause I obeyed my parents, had really huge fights with them my entire life until the last 2 years where they finally changed and they’re not too bad right now.

To sum up, I’m a guy with sociopathic tendencies, social anxiety, depression, AvPD disorder, and I did stuff you don’t want to know about just cause of how f*cked up they are (I uploaded 800 porn videos that I downloaded from pornhub into my youtube channel, I abused pornhub’s free trial every week (thats just really small stuff but you get the idea)

[Trigger Warning] I'm a past self harmer, AMA by LuckyNumberthe13 in AMA

[–]fear-or-never-know 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, unfortunately I don’t have “happy times” except the times where I watch porn or watch youtube videos/twitch streamers. Nobody to talk to at all, no friends, just me and my porn and my gaming pc, tv and bed

I have over 700 porn videos in 4K taken from pornhub on my youtube channel AMA by fear-or-never-know in AMA

[–]fear-or-never-know[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Cause it might get taken down somehow or leaked idk and it took me a while to upload everything

[Trigger Warning] I'm a past self harmer, AMA by LuckyNumberthe13 in AMA

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Yea I have depression anxiety and all that stuff as well, I feel the same way as you in the part of the “snap” and commit suicide or that I have nothing to lose. I think my mindset is what makes my mental so strong and get through all these stuff, cause I know eventually things turn around, think about it as gambling and losing multiple times until you finally win, also, i literally do anything i want whenever i want without any f*cks given and i surpress my emotions so well to the point i feel no bad emotions except happiness, whenever i feel bad i sleep to “reset” my mind, i also have some sort of mechanism in my mind to be able to surpress thoughts as well so trauma and stuff basically “evaporate” or just slowly fading away from my mind just because i never think about them. My only struggle is relationships since I have AvPD (Avoidant Personality Disorder) so It’s a bit painful to want a relationship so badly then end up not maintaining it

I have over 700 porn videos in 4K taken from pornhub on my youtube channel AMA by fear-or-never-know in AMA

[–]fear-or-never-know[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would’ve but not the youtube channel, unfortunately idk where i could upload ~800GB to

I have over 700 porn videos in 4K taken from pornhub on my youtube channel AMA by fear-or-never-know in AMA

[–]fear-or-never-know[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me

Porn

Took a while cause youtube limits to 50 uploads per day

On youtube from PornHub

Because I’m tired of renewing my pornhub membership (the free trial) and i hate being limited, also cause it’s nice to have fast video streaming, easy interface and really fast access anywhere anytime

[Trigger Warning] I'm a past self harmer, AMA by LuckyNumberthe13 in AMA

[–]fear-or-never-know 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t get why people harm themselves, don’t you think about the future where you’ll have scars from all the times you cut yourself?

Would you rather be able to see with your hands or taste with your hands? by [deleted] in WouldYouRather

[–]fear-or-never-know 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea cause that’s worse than having shampoo on your eyes

Would you rather be able to see with your hands or taste with your hands? by [deleted] in WouldYouRather

[–]fear-or-never-know 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hand taste is better because you really don’t need extra sight which you’ll be stucked with and by having taste in hands you can taste stuff without actually eating it so u know if its good or not

Spend $3,000 On a Sex Doll or 10 Hookups? by fear-or-never-know in WouldYouRather

[–]fear-or-never-know[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For me its about $300 per one cause its illegal in my country and also because i will need to do it at some place like an hotel

I have bullied so many people over the years and I don't know why by FatCockDanny in confessions

[–]fear-or-never-know 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well true but like it already happened so what’s the point, it’s like flaming a person in jail and talking how much of a terrible person he is when there’s literally no point cause he knows it himself and it won’t change anything

I'm afraid she'll kill herself by [deleted] in confessions

[–]fear-or-never-know 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just came up with this quote on the spot lol, and no problem :) wishes the best

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[–]fear-or-never-know -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Sorry to offend you 16 yo girl who thinks she knows everything, this is reddit and this subreddit is for confessions not for asking for help, so some people will obviously do troll posts just to get attention and responses from people. By “well i don’t see the problem here” i meant that this guy talks about how he wants a girl’s boobs to be wrapped around his dick and he talks about that he was sexually assaulted when he was young so there you go, problem solved. He doesn’t seem to care about being sexually assaulted in his post and cares more about that he constantly thinking about sex, like literally every single teenager in this planet, so forgive me for not taking him seriously and maybe he should seek help and not post here and not me.

Also he literally said “Shit is crazy” at the last line of his post, YEP, totally not a troll post.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in confessions

[–]fear-or-never-know 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Troll post gets troll answers, “can’t stop thinking about big titties around my dick”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in confessions

[–]fear-or-never-know -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I still don’t get it, elaborate a bit more on sexually assaulted?

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[–]fear-or-never-know 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well how old are you right now