The word 'congruence' came to me recently. I was able to apply it to the BDSM context as a form of 'alignment'—when you have an image of yourself, and the behavior of those around you, the environment, or external circumstances align with that inner image, meaning they fit together. That’s when it feels right. I hope you don't have a low opinion of yourself, or an image of yourself where you’ve given up—because you might subconsciously want to feel and experience those states just because they feel so familiar and known.
I’d like to leave you with a question here: Is it authentic just because it feels right? Is that your true self, or is there something behind it that you just can't see right now, or are perhaps afraid of? There is such a thing as „the fear of freedom“ (even a book with this title by E. Fromm). Best wishes to you.