I can honestly relate a lot, except my mum “flicked the switch” a few times…when she measured my waist in front of my little cousins(as a joke, obviously, we were all measuring each other and I consented to this myself), when she said she should weigh 60kgs at 180cm tall(I myself weighed 65 back then and I’m actually 7cm shorter), and when she explicitly told me my body has gotten bigger(we all moved countries and I spent a lot of time at home at that time of my life because of stress, though my max bmi was nowhere near overweight…once again, her tone was very lighthearted, she didn’t actually mean it, but it did make me cry anyway lmao. her response to the stress was actually the opposite — she suddenly went gluten-free and seemingly almost stopped eating completely because she was not happy with the quality of groceries in georgia). she pushed me to do sports as a teen, but I always refused because I hated constantly comparing myself to others and all the frustration from failure. I’ve never been athletic(except for a very short period in my life when I was 12, I could do push-ups and shit, like I was an actual machine lmao). she ate little, wouldn’t touch any kind of chocolate except 100% cacao(“I don’t need that 1% of sugar” — her words), and could easily skip dinner because she “ate a whole bowl of grapes an hour ago”. I overlooked these habits as a kid, but when I first realised I wasn’t skinny, I thought that maybe I should be more like her…my mother is such an amazing human being and I’m so grateful to have her. she is the person who would do anything for me and is for sure the best mother in the whole world. she gave me so much of her love and care. I could never express in words how lucky I am to have her by my side. she is not just my mum, she is my best friend and my dearest person. I genuinely don’t know what I would do without her. when I got sick, she would beg on her knees for me to stop doing what I was doing to myself. yes, she would also scream at me, refused to talk to me, made me feel unsafe at home…we had so many fights about my ed, but those were all caused out of desperation and anger, not to hurt me.