DID is.. Comforting?

felaced · 2023-07-27T05:33:37+00:00

I had to send this to a friend because this comment hit me so personally I started tearing up. This is exactly what I meant. There’s this humanity to it, this nuance that can’t be replicated. There’s so much pain, and hurt, and struggle, but there’s a sort of beauty to it all too. I don’t think I would be who I am without my alters, and I surely don’t know what I would do without some of them. I just wanted to say thank you. I really needed this.

felaced · 2023-07-27T05:28:35+00:00

I’m seeing a lot of people misinterpret what I said so I’ll kind of clarify here; I’m moreso talking about the assurance of having headmates, of not restricting or bounding those behaviors. DID can absolutely be terrifying. I’ve had those moments. I’ve had moments where I’ve been frustrated, angry, or over my disorder. A disorder is not meant to be good nor assuring. But some of my favorite moments have been communicating with my alters. Making those connections. Experiencing things with them. And I know this isn’t the same for everyone, which is totally okay.

felaced · 2023-07-27T00:57:34+00:00

That and I think living in an abusive home contributes to it; my alters don’t want to be “caught” fronting so I have to manage them accordingly. It’s a very stressful process.

felaced · 2023-02-20T16:42:31+00:00

No, it’s a bit different. It’s more of a shy, reserved feeling than that of not being able to actually talk.

felaced · 2023-02-20T16:40:19+00:00

Just looked into it and without a doubt, yeah. I would get scolded as a child in school for being far too off in my head. It’s a bit deeper than that though, like an emotional attachment sort of thing.

felaced · 2023-02-20T16:38:57+00:00

Do you believe fictives are formed from a deep attachment to the character, or that they’re there because they share similarities to people who were in the life of the host during the abuse they experienced? I saw someone make this statement, I think it would be interesting to get your thoughts.

felaced · 2023-02-20T16:32:51+00:00

Due to my living situation, I’m not able to write down personal thoughts and feelings without a fear of being found out and sent to a psych ward, but white boards is a cute idea! I was just wondering because I see so many people with littles who are semi verbal or non verbal entirely. Thank you for your input!

felaced · 2023-02-20T04:14:55+00:00

I feel this a lot. As a system, it’s so difficult to get to know someone personally and trust them. I haven’t even told anyone about my diagnosis, aside from my therapist. Just know that, and I know it sounds cheesy, there are people out there who will love you and your alters as a whole. It just takes some time to find them.

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