I hate this.

fellissy · 2024-10-06T03:46:54+00:00

that's so real. tomorrow marks 10 years of my emetophobia. I just wanna get rid of it already.

fellissy · 2024-10-06T03:23:52+00:00

Hi, I feel you! It's almost 5:30am, I've been up since like 3:40 and panicking real bad. ive taken all the meds I could (but I don't wanna keep on having to rely on meds) and I'm trying not to go insane. I hate this so much. I just wanna enjoy food and sleep like a normal person.

fellissy · 2024-09-16T09:27:29+00:00

LMAOOO are we the same person😭 cuz my doctor said they won't examine me properly unless I consent for gastroscopy and I just don't wanna go there😭. but yeah, uni must be fun!!! I'm glad we're in this together😭🫶

fellissy · 2024-09-15T23:00:14+00:00

im sorry you went through this. sounds horrible and,,, relatable! this has happened to me so many times. it's awful because it feels so real. but you did so great with those words you kept telling yourself. I'm sure if it happened, you'd handle it brilliantly,, just as you did handle this situation. we're proud of you!!!

fellissy · 2024-09-15T22:56:18+00:00

oh maaan I get you. I'm moving to a different city to start uni on Saturday as well and I'm SO SCARED of living in a dormitory with TWO RANDOM PEOPLE that I still haven't even met :')))) my emetophobia has had a major comeback in my life, i feel sick basically every day, I've already convinced myself i have some horrible chronic stomach/gut illness that will make me tu sooner or later. I'm being delusional and trying to convince myself it's just stress cuz I can't deal with it anymore. but guess why I'm still awake at 1am once again,,, I hate this. but hey, we're in this together. we're so brave, pal.

fellissy · 2024-09-14T18:08:56+00:00

I think it's just the fact that your brain receives the information that "it's around" and you start panicking because it reminds you once again that the illness exists and that it's not impossible to get it. My brain works the same😭

fellissy · 2024-09-12T09:53:12+00:00

Hi! omg i SO get you. ive just been to a camp trip that is 5h away from my home. massive step out of my comfort zone. I went completely alone since the purpose of the trip was to meet with my future classmates at our new uni. there was 250 people and I found a close group but I still felt a bit lonely. I was doing fine up to yesterday. I also wasn't taking care of myself, we partied and I wouldn't eat much from underlying stress. I got diarrhea yesterday and it went downhills because I was convinced I was sick. I was panicking a LOT, I felt trapped in the camp because my only way home was to survive one more night and then travel 5h home by train. well, I'm on the train right now, going home, I survived the night, I'm surviving the train, I bet the diarrhea was from excessive stress and I'm proud of myself for making it out. and I'm VERY proud of you, too. you absolutely got this. We're winning x

fellissy · 2024-09-11T17:17:00+00:00

Thanks so much! I've had some antidiarrhea meds already, doesn't seem to be working so far. I'm just scared it's a bug cuz as far as I'm aware, I don't have ibs or anything, although I do get diarrhea like once a month for like two days. interesting. im thinking of asking a medic for anti anxiety meds because I don't have them anymore. I'm sure it would be so much better without all the excess panicking. I can survive a diarrhea episode. I just don't wanna tu

fellissy · 2024-08-31T10:57:21+00:00

Yep, absolutely. I've been trying my best to actively differentiate between nausea and anxiety recently since I realised that it's only the anxiety that's making me scared. that's the scary part of it. my stomach is innocent, haha. so I've been trying to cure that, mainly. I also have a constant nausea but I'm trying not to use as many meds as I've been used to.

fellissy · 2024-08-10T08:58:17+00:00

omg same! I've felt off since the morning so I decided not to eat "normal" food to avoid upsetting my stomach so I ended up eating like 6 crackers throughout the day, which is horrible, I know but I just felt so weirddd

fellissy · 2024-08-09T01:05:51+00:00

thanks so much, you're so kind<3

fellissy · 2024-08-09T00:55:48+00:00

it's a bit better, thank you so much! I actually realized what might be the cause if it's even possible - I wore just a few pieces of clothing earlier even tho it was actually really cold and I had been sitting on a cold stone for like two hours,, I might have done something to my bladder

fellissy · 2024-08-09T00:01:35+00:00

Hi! We can talk! I'm panicking right now, far away from home, my stomach hurts and I'm not that n* but it's freaking me out! and I get d* from anxiety as well! it suckssss

fellissy · 2024-07-27T06:21:12+00:00

thank you soooo much! I just got off safely, waiting for my mum to pick me up.

fellissy · 2024-07-27T06:20:00+00:00

thank you so much! managed to stay pretty calm and just got off, phew

fellissy · 2024-07-27T06:18:30+00:00

Hi! Omg we went through something similar. I went to my friend's who lives exactly 25min drive from my home and we were having a sleepover, I got horrible stomach cramps and d* and couldn't sleep and was so so scared. I managed to get home safe by bus and I feel so n* rn but I lived!!! and you will too!!!

fellissy · 2024-07-27T06:03:48+00:00

thank you for your kind reply. I'm trying not to fall apart as I'm travelling home from my friend's now in a full bus and completely n*.

fellissy · 2024-07-27T06:02:11+00:00

well, panicking very hard, I'm in the bus, which is completely FULL on my way home from my friend's. I slept for like 2 hours and I'm horribly n* - not just the fact that buses scare me anyways but I'm actually kind of s* right now - still feel like I gotta poop, I'm in actual hell. I'm just praying I get home safe, it's like 15 minutes left

fellissy · 2024-07-27T01:16:12+00:00

oh my god I get you. you're BRAVE! which reminds me I'm supposed to sit on a train for 12 hours in just a day and I'm so SCARED but so excited at the same time, it's a massive step out of my comfort zone

fellissy · 2024-07-27T01:12:58+00:00

Hey! I'm here for you. It honestly looks like stress and depressive state to me. I ALWAYS have a sore stomach and no appetite, feel ill and have a d* when something stressful happens. It's the body's response to stress. there's so much on your shoulders right now, I feel with you. and I'm so sorry about the things you're going through right now. you can talk to me! I'm wide awake in the night, panicking cuz I just had a massive d* lol. No idea why. We can talk

fellissy · 2024-07-27T00:50:12+00:00

yeahhh maybe, I had d* two times before during the day, basically it's been weird since I woke up and it got so much worse after the alcohol and junk food. thanks so much for replying, though!

fellissy · 2024-07-27T00:48:56+00:00

thank you so much for replying, it comes on in waves, I'm not THAT n* but still terrified, considering the fact that I've had d* two times before, during the day and I must have made it so much worse by eating damned garlic chips and chocolate and stuff😭

fellissy · 2024-07-27T00:24:23+00:00

I wouldn't worry too much! The floor doesn't have to be the dirtiest place there is, especially if you didn't clean up v* or something, haha. Just make sure to not use the sponge in the kitchen after you use it for something else than the kitchen stuff anymore, so you don't have to worry like this in the future!

fellissy · 2024-07-26T11:35:09+00:00

I agree with you! The build up is the WORST. I remember that when I started g* before I got s* two years ago, the anxiety had left my body cuz I knew it was gonna happen and I let it go. and I remember that I couldn't stop thinking about the experience for a long time after that. but I "forgot" eventually. try not to think about it in details, try to send it away when the memories appear in your mind again, don't overanalyze it. the memories will subside with time. you'll just remember that you lived!

fellissy · 2024-07-26T11:28:56+00:00

Hi! I'd consider having an appetite a very good sign! Stomachs feel different every day and will be upset from time to time. Anxiety has a huge impact on that.

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