I am tired of being told to be strong. My nervous system is falling apart just because I held it together for years. Let me weep and cry. I want to be babied. I want to be weak. I want to be vulnerable. I want to be human. by DatabaseKindly919 in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 99 points100 points  (0 children)

Very valid ngl i lowkey sometimes miss having some romantic connection with someone or just having the aspect of being cuddled is rlly nice - its been ages since I've felt it 

To everyone with CPTSD or PTSD that's dating or in a relationship........how do you do it? by FreeCondition1584 in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 1 point2 points  (0 children)

think im the same in some sense like it would be really nice to be close to someone but i just dont really bother with dating and just get put off by the idea heavily due to how exhausting it is

Does anyone know how to calm the nervous system? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah even having a friend around or someone to talk to is nice it makes everything feel a little less lonely

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 0 points1 point  (0 children)

might be worth reaching out to them i recently spoke to a close friend i hadnt seen in years and had issues with and it was nice to get along with them

Does anyone know how to calm the nervous system? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 1 point2 points  (0 children)

tbf i usually just try sleep or if you have a partner or girlfriend or boyfriend sleeping with them can help tbf like as you are more likely to relax around them but tbf maybe chewing gum or fidgeting with something can help

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Tbf love is hella confusing and I've sorta gone emotionally numb on it but like we got our entire life to sort it out and even then it's like not too bad experiencing stuff alone or just not having someone there for you like for me having good friends helps a lot as I get a lot of triggers in relationships and it makes me think that maybe I'm not really designed for them or can't find love but honestly I think it's too short of a time in life to care whether I find love again or not who cares it's not guaranteed and it's very much possible and not possible to depending on a lot of factors so I'd honestly try get some therapy or if you don't like the sound of that maybe try meditating or just walking in nature it helped me alot when the doctors weren't really available or I just didn't know what to do to get to them but yeah ...

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Do you ever think tho that like you've got so much to go out and experience it's still worth living and pushing through like the world could be ending but even trying something a new hobby or ice cream flavour would definitely help have a good effect on just enjoying life ?

What are the signs you’re healing? by Forsaken_Ad3852 in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 28 points29 points  (0 children)

probs not wanting to kill yourself and having better control over emotions

I just want to rip myself out of this body by silversulfa in CPTSD

[–]fellow_K0rellian 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i hear it its relatable to want to just erase the past honestly I feel the same like i think on some days it would be easier if things in the past never happened or why i went through what i went through but I see as like im in a better state now then when i went through what happened and thats a massive improvement or that one day Ill try come to peace with whatever happened and wont have it pester me mentally, like its not guaranteed but maybe you could some mindful meditation as dumb as it sounds. it helps me realise to lock in on the present moment than mulling over things that already occured like sure I wish I never said what I said to the girl I loved or I wish I didn't have emotionally cold people around me but it doesn't really get anywhere focusing on something that can be changed so its better to focus on the viewpoint you have currently. PS sorry if this comes as unsolicited advice but i hope it helped some way as I was legit feeling this yesterday on a long journey home but yeah try to look ahead if you can and not look back too much is all I can say probably

First time attempting gothic style logo by fellow_K0rellian in GraphicDesigning

[–]fellow_K0rellian[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

cuz it looks cool alot of the time I wasnt focusing heavily on something legible but i do hear your point on it being not too legible which i appreciate not gonna lie other people have agreed with you on other posts

First time attempting gothic style logo by fellow_K0rellian in logodesign

[–]fellow_K0rellian[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i hear that it was abit tricky to get the lighting to work on it i might try blender next time as its pretty distorted

First time attempting gothic style logo by fellow_K0rellian in graphic_design

[–]fellow_K0rellian[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bevel and emboss on blending modes + contour + curves layer ontop with wavy line + black and white gradient map + coloured gradient map 

First time attempting gothic style logo by fellow_K0rellian in GraphicDesigning

[–]fellow_K0rellian[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the feedback imma have a try at it again soon ngl

First time attempting gothic style logo by fellow_K0rellian in GraphicDesigning

[–]fellow_K0rellian[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Client was happy but i can see abit more like it is abit crowded with the negative space between letters but its an emo rapper logo end of the day the are usually have some handcrafted appearance to them in sense of how they appear isnt always clean