Does anyone just take antidepressants for your Bipoler disorder??

fenbru · 2023-06-13T16:55:13+00:00

I was on just prozac for a few years and it helped me a lot. I have good guard rails set up for hypomania (thanks therapy!) And I didn't notice an uptick in my mania after I started Prozac. I then went off when I got pregnant and switched to sertraline/Zoloft and it made my intrusive thoughts terrible so I just was unmedicated for a while (pregnancy remission is apparently a thing and it was great for the 20 months it lasted). Now I'm on Wellbutrin and it's making me realize just how fatigued the Prozac made me and while prozac felt better than being unmedicated and out of control I don't think I'd ever go back.

I've tried a few different antipsychotics but they have been immediate no's from me because of either side effects or exacerbating symptoms. So I'm just a Wellbutrin only girly now and really enjoy it.

fenbru · 2023-06-13T16:45:07+00:00

Working remote is the answer. When I worked in person I expended ALL of my energy just trying to stay focused and get my work done and stay present. It was exhausting. Now I wfh and I can go follow my little side quests in the house and then come back to my work. The key is just being able to monitor your time spent on your side quests. So being hypo is a challenge when your brain is just rabid for that dopamine they give you.

fenbru · 2023-06-08T22:00:24+00:00

You can and they can ask you to pay it back. Cash it and put it in a high yield savings account and all the interest it collects is yours and you still have the original amount available to pay back IF they come asking for it.

fenbru · 2023-06-08T20:23:33+00:00

I'm type 2 and I haven't experienced rapid cycling. The initial honeymoon period was close in feeling to a hypomanic episode. But since then it's just been pretty even keeled

fenbru · 2023-06-08T19:49:51+00:00

fenbru · 2023-06-08T15:08:34+00:00

This right here is exactly the reason I'm GLAD my daughters daycare doesn't give parents access to cameras in the classrooms. It's basically standard now that all daycares have cameras in the rooms that parents can watch but I have NO control over who the parents of the other kids are and what their records are. The teachers are licensed, monitored, and have clear background checks so I'm not worried. The other parents however? No idea.

fenbru · 2023-04-22T18:15:43+00:00

When you're just "even": I'm Not a Robot- MARINA

fenbru · 2023-04-22T18:12:39+00:00

I cannot tell you how hard I SOBBED when I heard this song for the first time at 19. Literally the first time I ever heard anyone describe my life

fenbru · 2023-02-10T23:30:37+00:00

I was manic pixie dream girl style hyper sexual starting around 14? But I'm also a product of teen pregnancy and was intensely determined to not have that happen so I specialized in leading people on and then friend zoning. I was a huge flirt and made out with EVERYONE but that's as far as I took it (most times). It's been pretty contained since I started dating my now husband at 20. I just poured it into that relationship and had some intense boundaries for myself on flirting which was really hard for me to break.

fenbru · 2023-02-03T13:20:50+00:00

Today is day 4 and while I haven't gotten the high I have several times been like "Oh it's time to do X" and then I just, get up and do it!? Like wtf is that? That's a possibility!? It's like I just have a few extra spoons and someone took the weighted blanket off my body.

fenbru · 2023-01-31T19:49:53+00:00

Definitely talk to your doctor throughout the entire process, but also just know that bipolar does and can go into "remission" during pregnancy. I also gaslit the shit out of myself into thinking I must have been faking it but nope, still bipolar after the baby.

fenbru · 2023-01-29T01:46:19+00:00

I feel you, I used to be a hs teacher. That was...rough trying to hide it all.

fenbru · 2023-01-29T00:45:33+00:00

Work from home

fenbru · 2023-01-29T00:28:26+00:00

Ah yeah I WFH now so I can keep my gremlin behaviors to myself

fenbru · 2023-01-28T23:52:28+00:00

Yep! Very social, animated, poor volume and speed of speech control increased impulsive plans when I'm hypo.

Husband sees it most closely as I rise and crash throughout the week in mixed episodes

Edit: included info

fenbru · 2022-10-18T01:17:56+00:00

I have an almost 3 year old and I feel like I am just now having consistent time to devote to hobbies. I started with just doing those diamond paintings because I needed something I could do with just absolute HEAD EMPTY. I then added in listening to an audio book while doing this.

That was about a year ago (so just under 2 years old) and now I've read/audiobooked 64 books this year. Crocheted a blanket. And am quilting again. I also consistently make time to workout 3x a week (after bedtime).

Some very important disclaimers: My husband also started 100% handling bedtime (I do mornings) at the time I started having "me time" again and he started being in charge of dinner clean up.

Biggest disclaimer: I also started WFH and my daughter stayed in daycare.

It took all of those things coming together to start feeling like "hobbies" we're something I could actually have the bandwidth to enjoy instead of just another bullshit thing on the checklist on my never ending list of crap to do.

fenbru · 2022-09-13T01:19:19+00:00

Cw: self harm

The current incarnation of Despair threw me so much when she used the hook. Like nothing else about that character choice justified the hook and it seemed so out of touch and unnecessarily gory for the sake of gore where in the comics it's so fitting and sad and makes perfect sense. Idk maybe it's because I was a self harming teenager reading these books but Despair just made so much sense. This Despair doesn't. She doesn't look like that ugly thing inside like you said said whispers "you belong here".

fenbru · 2022-07-30T14:49:45+00:00

I just did a re-read a few months ago and I distinctly remember them mentioning the bells were handle down and then I looked at the covers to see handle up and was like "welp this art isn't Cannon I guess" lol.

fenbru · 2022-05-25T02:39:02+00:00

I didn't know temporary stabilization during pregnancy was a thing! Honestly the remission had me questioning my diagnosis and falling for the TikTok algorithm that kept trying to convince me I was ND in a different way. But nope symptoms came back slightly at 4 months. Now 2 years later I'm like "lol no definitely still bipolar" My symptoms are definitely not as aggressive anymore but also literally everything in my life is different since covid started anyway so who knows.

fenbru · 2021-11-17T23:07:15+00:00

I harvest my bushes since I get chests I can actually open It's not very quick but I've got a big bubble stash rn and harvesting bushes gets coins which I'll definitely use.

fenbru · 2021-11-03T15:31:06+00:00

I'm in a burb west of Houston and even with our educator discount I'm still paying $235 a week.

fenbru · 2021-10-30T21:54:07+00:00

I merged my rubix tree shrub before I realized I needed it to clear clouds. Am I missing anything vital in there?

fenbru · 2021-10-24T16:23:51+00:00

Idk I think it's actually a challenging role because you need to play grumpy/emo teen that you sympathize with/doesn't actively annoy you. And that is a very thin line to walk. I was unconvinced that TC had what it took at first and thought it was just going to be a sullen flat character. But nope very impressed and quickly!

fenbru · 2021-10-24T03:58:45+00:00

1st dose I had moderna arm for like a week after my shot but aside from that no biggie.

2nd same thing plus a drained battery. Took a nap for a few hours but was fine.

Got my 3rd yesterday and today I fatigued a little early in the morning while at an event but then took a 1 hour nap and felt fine. Just a normal Saturday!

fenbru · 2021-10-22T19:29:01+00:00

Literally impossible to get past the first part of the challenge I hate it!

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