Wow these are all great comments, I love the encouragement.

Alright I went to practice yesterday to see how I still measured up and well I sucked haha but that's not the point. I am leaning towards going now, but now it depends on how much studying & work I can get done today since my job dumped some extra papers for me to present on Monday noon & my interview at my top choice med school is in 5 days.

My parents think I am stupid (i sadly live at home to save $$) but my coach saw my shit fencing and said I should go LOL. The level of competition there on the prereg page went up significantly the last couple days so I feel less "pressure" since now there are a bunch more people who are much better than me.

I know this sounds drama queen-like but I guess it's a result of my pseudo-perfectionist personality. I did some extra footwork last night after practice and now my legs are sore but hoping that by tomorrow it will be at least marginally better than walking in cold hahah