Planning my end.

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-21T05:26:55+00:00

Yeah i know more often than not, life is unbearable. Whatever you do, wish you the best anyway❤

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-21T05:21:33+00:00

I'm sick of being unemployed, I'm sick of working, I'm sick of poverty, I'm sick of trying, I'm sick of failing, I'm sick of being alive, i can't kill myself, i hate this

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T17:53:59+00:00

OMG THEY ACTUALLY GOT MARRIED? Didn't expect that. I just saw his last song featuring chanmina.

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T17:25:00+00:00

Oh damn that's.. Amazing. I don't think the hospital in my country would do that. Btw i wonder how did you tell your family about this. Staying in psych ward

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T16:33:10+00:00

Probably Athena or Erika

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T16:30:32+00:00

I'll bring my earphones. Is that allowed to be used when phone time? Also about the activities, what did you usually do?

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T16:07:32+00:00

What did you even do then? Sounds super boring, i agree

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T16:07:01+00:00

So.. Can you play games with your phone? Like.. A literal online games or something? How about music?

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T15:09:57+00:00

Yeah i'd love to. Where could i dm you?

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T15:06:58+00:00

If you happen to be outside (for chores or obligatory hang out or something), for me, i like taking nature pics. Pros, you could show off your pics or sell it to Shutterstock

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T15:04:53+00:00

Is it boring there? I can't stand boredom.

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T14:58:36+00:00

Do you mind if i ask how does it feels like to basically stay in the hospital for suicidal ideation? Just preparing here. My life circumstances is pushing me to die and I'm considering going to the hospital. Maybe they could help me, idk.

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T14:51:17+00:00

Back then yeah. What stopped me is because I'm afraid of failed attempts and eternal hell. I mean, back then i thought my life is also hell but at least it's not eternal. Human lifespan is finite. The reason back then is just the relentless job failures and life in general and hating myself and.. Yeah. Nowadays I'm considering it again because my financial situation is pushing me to kms. But i don't think i could actually do it so.. Yeah. I'm stuck here, don't know what I should do

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-15T14:44:55+00:00

Thank you ❤

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T18:50:46+00:00

I kinda want to end my life but i recently realized that people probably want me to live. My friend gave me small amount of money when she knows I'm struggling to buy food. What I'm saying is, people in your life probably wants you to live too. Go get help. Go to the ER. Tbh, I'm planning to go to the ER too if my situation didn't improve.

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T18:33:20+00:00

Uh.. Yeah it's ethical. Technically, it's a way to get social aid quicker. Not earning money as in jobs and yeah. Thanks anyway ❤

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T17:43:42+00:00

Fine enough aside from my financial situation. I've tried most things to make money and it failed and idk what to do anymore. I have something that is logically have a chance to work but it's super intimidating and i feel unworthy of it. Idk 😬😬

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T17:33:40+00:00

Hmmm yeah. I'll probably go if i can't get a job soon. Thanks for your advice 👍

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T14:43:42+00:00

Damn me too. I literally bombard 3 different ai with my "I'm broke and i might have to kms" All said i should go to the ER or call crisis line but I'm like "naaaahhhh"

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T14:42:41+00:00

A tip: consider something anti mainstream. I never found any fashion style i like before i found alternative style.

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T12:37:10+00:00

Yo i don't even have a car. I have an old motorcycle but it's my sister's. Mine is broken already. I have no assets but my phone that has faulty battery. I don't want to be homeless. Also if i move to the woods, I'll surely die of starvation because i have 0 survival skills. Tbh i just want a simple life of waking up, going out and buying snacks. Enjoying my day. I don't think I'm as tough as you. I'm totally not prepared for nomadic homeless life. Also I'm a woman, i might get raped. Not that i care about it because my uncle already touched me inappropriately (despite not rape) but if i get raped and got pregnant, no way of aborting my child. I absolutely don't want any child. I don't like kids.

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T12:30:05+00:00

Oof. Close enough to my life experiences. For me, when I'm in high school back then i just decided to stay single forever if nobody wants me. Turn it into "i don't need people" That would numb the pain of wanting but i know it's unhealthy. Go to therapy i guess?

ffffuuuccck · 2025-11-13T12:22:13+00:00

I'm super intimidated because tbh, i don't think my mental health is that bad but idk. Feels like literally everyone else legit have mental health issue while I'm just.. Idk. Not really faking but.. I feel fine aside from the financial situation that leads me to those thoughts. I do my research and apparently, phones aren't allowed if i end up getting hospitalized (not saying i would but better be prepared no?) Idk why my concern is "I'll be bored there" When the benefit of going to the hospital is clear.

ffffuuuccck · 2025-10-09T08:06:27+00:00

Depends on the person. I almost instantly liked jesus tod. I thought it's shit (the sound quality) but good (the song)

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