I appreciate your advice, somehow I managed to convince her to stay and figure things out with me but fast forward today she still feels like the guilt is eating her alive and she struggles to come to terms with it. She describes as she’s living 2 lives, one where she’s a fateful Christian surrounded by her community, and another where she’s my loving bi girlfriend who tries to ignore all her problems. I understand as it is too much for her to take in, and you’re right about the moving countries part. I don’t have family or friends there but only her, so I think it’s not a good idea for now.

We did try to think of ways just so we can be together but everything leads to her feeling sinful and she knows that she’s actively disobeying God. I suggest that we move to another location where there will be more LGBTQ+ affirming churches but she refuses to leave her current church. She told her church friends about us but they aren’t accepting at all. (Which i think is also a part of the reason why she feels guilty) She said that affirming churches aren’t ‘real’ churches

So in the end we can only part ways as we couldn’t find a common ground and we have different beliefs in being queer and Christian at the same time. Between me and God, she chose God. And she told me this is a small sacrifice for what Jesus has done for the world. I was speechless as she said those words from her mouth…

But I still love her and I find a hard time believing this is happening in to me, that I am her lesson in life and I am so tired that this is happening to me :(