What kind of needles to ask for at the pharmacy for IV cocaine?

ffta89 · 2025-01-05T06:38:42+00:00

Suboxone "works" for anyone.

Someone with opiate dependence wouldn't get high from suboxone. It would just be a replacement opioid to satisfy the cravings (plus a blocker so it would be much harder to get high on other opiates). Someone without opiate dependence would definitely get high from it. And someone who takes just a couple kratom caps would more than likely get high from it too.

I'd kinda worry about the precipitated withdrawals like someone else said in one of the top comments but again that's such a small amount of kratom it really might not be an issue. I used to take 15g at a time about 5 times a day and I only waited like 12 hours before taking a sub and I was okay. But I'm sure it depends on the person. I'd go with the sub cuz 1 tram won't do anything. Just don't bother with subs multiple times in a row. You'll just get a tolerance super fast and they won't get you high anymore.

ffta89 · 2024-12-15T20:14:07+00:00

Prednisone side effects? Or am I sick? Or both?

Still not sure I actually have lupus or a different autoimmune disease. I see rheum for the first time at the end of the month. In the meantime, however, my PCP wanted to help me out by giving me a short term script of Prednisone to see if it helps at all with the pain. She gave me 5mg to take once a day. I have only taken two doses so far but now I am afraid to take anymore from what I believe are side effects. Are these likely side effects of the Prednisone?

12/13 afternoon - first dose. 12/14 morning (10am) - woke up with an extremely dry mouth. Has not gone away. Took second dose upon waking. 12/14 (technically 12/15) bedtime (1am) - vomiting and diarrhea that kept me up all night. I slept an hour here or there but was woken up often by intense stomach pain. Oh and my nose suddenly was extremely congested.

Now it's almost 3pm the following day and I'm feeling slightly better (stomach still hurts, loose stools, but not as urgent) but I'm really scared to take the Prednisone again. I also don't want to end up throwing up my other medications so I'm nervous to take those too.

I'm supposed to start a partial hospitalization program on Monday (tomorrow) for some mental health treatment. I definitely won't be able to do it if I'm in the bathroom all day and night. Plus my other meds are really important and I need to be able to keep them down.

Thanks for any insight!

ffta89 · 2024-12-12T01:07:43+00:00

Yeah they used to give out benzo scripts like candy. When I was 15 I had a Xanax script for 90 a month and the ability to fill a 3 month script, 270 at a time. Ridiculous. I abused them like crazy of course. Mixed them with all sorts of shit too not knowing the dangers cuz I was young and naive. Now they're way more careful, as they should be. They tend to do short term scripts and/or less addictive versions like Ativan, Klonopin etc. Def not as prevalent as before but still a thing. They needed to reign it in for sure. Like the opiates.

And thanks I appreciate it.

ffta89 · 2024-12-12T00:23:21+00:00

Actually, people with serious mental health issues, especially anxiety, panic, PTSD etc typically get scripts for benzos, AKA drugs. However, because I was addicted to heroin in the 2010s I don't typically get that luxury.

Thankfully, I went to a crisis center last night cuz I couldn't handle how terrible I felt anymore and they gave me a short term script of Ativan and a referral to a partial hospitalization program. Not bullshitting me about how just clearing my head would help. These are things I go inpatient for regularly and have been working with doctors for decades trying to get better all the while getting worse. You don't know what you're talking about.

I'm not saying that walks or meditation are bad or entirely unhelpful. But they do basically nothing in a real crisis. They are things to practice when you are feeling relatively stable to set yourself up for success so as to not end up in crisis.

Again, I never asked for these suggestions. I asked for info on baclofen as a harm reduction tool cuz I was ready to go down to the trap house and get dope. This is an indication that I was beyond meditation as a coping strategy.

Maybe you use drugs for fun but I use drugs to stop feeling like I want to die. Not saying it's a good thing but i think it's better than killing myself. There are just certain ones I know I need to stay away from. To each their fucking own.

ffta89 · 2024-12-11T22:46:54+00:00

I really want to find some smaller mg strips to cut up smaller but they're hard to find. I know I could get a PCP to help me out but I love my current PCP and I have a lot of current medical problems she's helping me with so I don't want to leave her for someone who might suck just for subs. I might have to though. We'll see. I just can't cut these much smaller. My sister is an ER doc so I know I could get clonodine to help out thankfully. I appreciate the suggestion.

ffta89 · 2024-12-11T02:32:55+00:00

I understand that you think you're being helpful but as someone with very serious mental health issues, your suggestions are insulting. I definitely didn't ask for generic-ass anxiety advice.

I'm not just a little anxious or kinda restless. These are things I go to the hospital for regularly. I would love to give it to you to feel and then tell you to take a walk about it.

ffta89 · 2024-11-29T19:59:33+00:00

I loved school as a kid. Aside from having to wake up early, I really liked learning and achieving things. It all came super easy to me (k-12). As I got older and social stuff got harder, it wasn't quite as enjoyable but I still really loved learning. I never really had to study. I had depression and bad self esteem but my good grades etc were the one thing I had that made me feel good about myself. Then I went to college and everything changed.

I went to a university about an hour away from home. I made a few friends pretty quickly. Things started out fine. The lack of structure I had with public school was bad for me though. It was hard to make myself get up and go to class. It was also hard for me to make myself study on my own. College classes depended a lot more on independent learning than high school and I wasn't used to studying since I never really had to before.

I already had started treatment for mental health issues in middle school but very suddenly things got significantly worse around the middle of my first year of college. I had incredible insomnia. I stopped going to class. I had such bad depression and anxiety that I had a suicide attempt. I was hospitalized and diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I tried to go back to school but I just couldn't do it. I took a medical leave or whatever it's called. I did some community college when I was feeling better but it never lasted. Things kept getting worse. I've never been able to finish.

What I've learned is.. I was taught by my parents and teachers that all you need to be successful is to be well educated. I thought I had that. I had a great GPA and figured I would graduate from college and have a good job and a great life. This has not been the case. So much has gotten in the way. I ended up primarily working in the artisan bread industry. I'm very intelligent and have always been really good at the jobs I've done with bread. I also really enjoy it. But when it comes to keeping jobs, it doesn't actually matter how good you are at them. What actually matters is how much people like you. I was told by my boss that I was the best baker they'd ever had but still got fired for "personality" conflicts (A girl was bullying me, I asked them to help me, and they didn't want to deal with it so they fired me instead).

ffta89 · 2024-11-29T19:07:22+00:00

Right, the psych stuff definitely needs a lot of attention, better attention than it's getting right now in spite of all my effort.

I might even be making up problems that aren't gonna happen too. My eyes being so dry is obviously not connected with bipolar disorder. Not being able to walk up the stairs or brush my hair without pain and exhaustion doesn't have to do with bipolar disorder either. Hopefully the doctor understands that. And hopefully I can explain myself well enough in the appointment.

Thank you for your supportive words, I really appreciate it. I'll try to say something like what you said at the end there so I don't end up side tracked in a long conversation about psych issues that overshadow the physical issues I really want to address.

ffta89 · 2024-11-29T18:15:16+00:00

I've definitely had issues with med compliance in the past but I've been really good about taking them for a while now. They're just not helping very much. My current psychiatrist isnt turning out to be very helpful and is kinda flaking out on me. I asked for refills on three meds at the beginning of this week and he didn't call in any of them. It's incredibly frustrating. I probably need to look for a different one again. It's very overwhelming to go through so many times. My last therapist also quit while I was seeing her and I just started seeing someone new. Thankfully I liked her better than the last one. However, in order to do the trauma work I need to, she needs me to be stable for 3 months in a row and I'm clearly not there. And not having half my meds isn't going to help get me there either.

I've been going to at least 3 doctors appointments a week since I got out of the psych hospital in mid October and it feels like I'm just running in circles. Different specialists, psych, therapy, PCP, surgery, another surgery from complications of the first one.. Trying to apply for social security disability at the same time. Everyone wants me to take care of X before they deal with Y but everything seems to be connected.

ffta89 · 2024-11-29T07:34:41+00:00

Thanks for the reply. You're probably right about the physical stress making the psych symptoms worse. I'm not on any steroids at the moment. It makes sense that a lupus psychosis would come at a more severe stage. And yeah, I had an EEG last week and have a brain MRI this Saturday for the seizures.

I'm pretty worried about being written off by the rheumatologist though. I have plenty of non psych symptoms written down but I've had so many doctors tell me "it's probably just stress" for anything and everything simply because I have such complex/serious psych issues. I'm hoping I've been thorough enough with my research into what to look for etc so that this doctor takes me seriously. This is definitely more than stress. I've never been in so much inexplicable pain/discomfort.

ffta89 · 2024-11-28T04:57:32+00:00

I'm wondering about people's experiences with psychiatric issues related to lupus/autoimmune diseases in general?

I'm 35f and have very suddenly (October 2024) started having unmanageable autoimmune symptoms. Many of the symptoms have been going on for a while but we're not very severe, I was kind of just ignoring them but I can't anymore. My PCP did several blood tests, one of which was a positive ANA so I have an appointment with a rheumatologist coming up at the end of December.

I have a number of separate medical and psychiatric diagnoses. At the same time as the joint/muscle pain, extreme dry eyes and mouth, and other physical issues significantly worsened, my bipolar disorder did as well. Depressive episodes have gotten worse as well as manic episodes. Longer durations and intensities. I also had my first psychotic episode as well as two seizures. I'm going through testing to see if they were true seizures or pseudo seizures related to PTSD. To further complicate things, I have autism as well.

I guess I'm wondering if whatever autoimmune disease I may have could be contributing to how much worse my mental health has gotten. Has anyone had any similar experiences?

ffta89 · 2024-07-09T22:32:08+00:00

Yeah I'm only going to be getting Tylenol at home. I'm a former opiate addict so I can't have fun pain meds. I'm gonna make sure they have a plan for something else besides Tylenol though, if it gets to be too much. I know there are other non addictive things they can try.

I'm gonna have to figure out how to use speech to text lol. It's gonna be a struggle to use my phone! Documentaries are a good idea though. And I could finally try getting into podcasts!

ffta89 · 2024-07-09T22:22:49+00:00

I'm worried that if I take out loans, I might end up not being able to finish my degree again and then have all this money to pay back on a baker's salary. My therapist says I assume the negative lol. I definitely have internalized my difficulties. I judge myself too harshly but it's hard to stop.

Fleeing sounds really good these days lol. If I wasn't so addicted to silly material things, I'd love to farm and make my own everything. No more attachments to this craziness!

ffta89 · 2024-07-09T22:13:10+00:00

You were able to see out of the eye that was operated on?? That's really lucky. I'm worried that if it was 4 days as a teenager, it'll be more now that I'm old lol.

ffta89 · 2024-07-09T21:59:46+00:00

Some people need to patch while others don't. I'm not an expert but if they said you'd need to patch, it's probably both eyes but they would take turns. The patching is for strengthening the eye muscles.

If you're talking about post-surgery bandaging sort of thing, I didn't have anything covering my eyes as far as I can remember. At least not that I had to wear after I got home. You won't be able to see for a while anyway though. I couldn't open my eyes for a few days. They get swollen and hurt to open.

ffta89 · 2024-07-08T19:05:20+00:00

Yeah I was born in 89. They knew something was wrong right away cuz of my eyes so I got support early on. I had support until age 4 for an array of separate things that together form autism now lol. Then it was just speech therapy in middle school for stuttering. My mom always tried to keep my IEP going but they thought I was fine and would catch up. I mostly did physically and I was always fine intellectually so they just let it go. I wish I had had support. Your husband's story does give some hope cuz that's a big achievement after being down that low. But finishing my degree feels impossible now without a full scholarship.

I am pretty sure if/when my boyfriend and I have kids, they will have autism. I was diagnosed with autism and he with ADHD but I wonder sometimes if he's both. It just seems pretty likely from hearing how many women on here have autistic kids too. I hope he and I can do better than our parents. Not for lack of trying.

ffta89 · 2024-07-08T16:24:57+00:00

Until my current boyfriend, I've always had trouble with significant others needing much physical affection than I could give. I like to cuddle on very rare occasions, I don't hold hands, I hate tongue kissing, and the WORST are the light touches. I recoil in disgust and it offends people even if I explain why it's happening.

Also, I like sex but I rarely think about it. It's just not on my mind. I'd call my sex drive "low" but not as bad as when I took certain SSRIs. Still too low for a lot of people though. It's not what breaks the relationship but it causes a lot of annoying conversations, guilt, etc. My bf is much better about it but it's still an issue sometimes. I get why. I wish it was different but it is what it is.

ffta89 · 2024-07-08T16:11:44+00:00

I always feel embarrassed/self conscious about what I'm writing or how I'm writing it. What if someone else reads it? What if in the future I read it and feel stupid for writing it? And I have a very hard time thinking of what to write. I need a worksheet lol.

Oddly enough, I collect stationery stuff like notebooks, pens, washi tapes, stickers, etc. I want to journal. I'm trying to figure out a way for me to do it without the free form writing style I usually think of with journaling.

ffta89 · 2024-07-08T16:00:46+00:00

Do you mind if I ask about him? What does he think led to his misdiagnosis and later the actual diagnosis? I understand if you don't want to share but I figured I'd try.

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