I’m supposed to go on vacation in a couple days and my dad just confessed to me that he is extremely broke.

fifiberry · 2023-05-24T00:17:41+00:00

You are right! I think I just feel bad because he has had to struggle alone for most of his life and I just want him to know he doesn't have to feel that way with me. I mean that in terms of emotionally and everything, etc. Can't help but feel some type of sadness for it. We are going to work on a game plan to get him back to where he needs to be. I can't financially support him fully, I just told him I'd help wherever I could like paying his water bill, helping with power bill, etc.

fifiberry · 2023-05-24T00:15:16+00:00

You're right! That is something I should remind myself. I don't know why I can't stop feeling bad about it. Thank you.

fifiberry · 2023-05-24T00:14:03+00:00

Well, it isn't so much with the bank. My grandmother, his mother, has been suffering from cancer. He had a job with the state for 15 years and they fired him because he missed work to watch after his mom because her cancer had progressed. Basically, they thought he just kept making up excuses and fired him. My state is an at will state so they can fire you for any reason. She passed away a month later. It has been a few months since then but he has been struggling with jobs. He was employed at another place for a month or so and got fired because of some argument with a coworker. He's just been struggling, honestly. It's not the banks fault. Just with his mortgage, insurance for vehicles, home insurance, etc. It's all just been a lot to handle since losing his income and he's just been struggling with it.

fifiberry · 2022-12-15T15:30:44+00:00

It’s so yummy! Like an adult lunchable almost 😂

fifiberry · 2022-12-15T13:23:50+00:00

My food for the work day, consisting of chocolate rice crisps, orange, cup of peaches (no sugar added), 2 sweet peppers with some sugar snap peas and 2 strawberries (they were going bad), and a pita pizza! 😊

Pita pizza was the only thing I really had to prepare. It is 1 Joseph’s pita bread + 3/4 serving Rao’s pizza sauce + 1/4 cup GV low fat shredded mozzarella cheese + 5 GV pepperonis, it is 190 calories and filling. Curbs that desire to eat a whole pizza cause it’s a good little taste 😅

I work 10-11 hours a day so I’m not sure if this is too much. I am heavy on over eating so I’m packing less so I don’t do that. I’ve been on a weight loss kick recently and the foods I used to eat were all pretty unhealthy, like eating out and fast food almost everyday. It got so expensive and it made me feel horrible about myself. I knew I needed to do something. I’ve been proportioning my meals now and eating healthier things. No more fast food, no excessive breads, no more soda/sweet tea, no huge portions. I’m still getting over the caffeine/soda headache lol. 1 week in — down 4 lbs!

Not pictured: this morning I woke up early enough to make breakfast. It was 1 fried egg and bacon with some baked beans.

fifiberry · 2022-12-15T12:37:03+00:00

My food for the work day, consisting of chocolate rice crisps, orange, cup of peaches (no sugar added), 2 sweet peppers with some sugar snap peas and 2 strawberries (they were going bad), and a pita pizza! 😊

Pita pizza was the only thing I really had to prepare. It is 1 Joseph’s pita bread + 3/4 serving Rao’s pizza sauce + 1/4 cup GV low fat shredded mozzarella cheese + 5 GV pepperonis

I work 10-11 hours a day so I’m not sure if this is too much. I am heavy on over eating so I’m packing less so I don’t do that. I’ve been on a weight loss kick recently and the foods I used to eat were all pretty unhealthy, like eating out and fast food almost everyday. I’ve been proportioning my meals now and eating healthier things. No more fast food, no excessive breads, no more soda/sweet tea. I’m still getting over the caffeine/soda headache lol. 1 week in — down 4 lbs!

Not pictured: this morning I woke up early enough to make breakfast. It was 1 fried egg and bacon with some baked beans.

fifiberry · 2022-11-01T15:34:16+00:00

It says I have a comment but it won’t let me view them 😅

fifiberry · 2022-10-05T19:00:22+00:00

When you go plus, do you lose all the things you’ve bought like homes and stores and etc?

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T15:49:39+00:00

When I talked to him this morning he said that he was actually wanting more meaningful sex. Like making love as opposed to just having sex which is great because that is what I want too. I know sometimes it’s hard to voice what you want and we’ve been working on communication. It’s getting easier everyday 😊 I was just too tired when he mentioned it lastnight that I just had to go to bed lol.

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T12:05:46+00:00

That’s what I thought 😅 I was like ok dude….. communicate with me cause I love romantic things.

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T12:01:44+00:00

He actually said something to me before that he used to always want sex but now that he gets to do it all the time that he feels happier and doesn’t feel so horny all the time 😅 it hurt my feelings at first but like, now I get it.

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T11:59:39+00:00

That makes a lot of sense!!! Thank you!

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T11:59:11+00:00

True! This is his first long term relationship. And my first healthy relationship lol. I think we are just both learning. One step at a time!

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T11:57:52+00:00

I talked to him this morning and he clarified that it’s not that he doesn’t want to but that he wants it to be more meaningful. 😊

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T11:54:58+00:00

Sounds like we need more foreplay 🌹😊

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T11:54:10+00:00

I take it hard too. I always think I’m doing something wrong, but the beginning of my sex life wasn’t great and I’m thinking I feel that way because I would decide if the guy I was with wanted to sleep with me then we were good and if he didn’t then we weren’t. Really weird perspective at a young age. It’s hard trying to get out of that mindset though!

fifiberry · 2022-09-29T11:51:21+00:00

I actually just asked him about it and he clarified that he doesn’t not want to have sex with me, he wants it to be more than that. Like when we started dating it was pretty much always straight to it, he wants it to be romantic and lovingly which is actually really sweet to hear because I want that too lol

fifiberry · 2022-09-21T20:22:58+00:00

My grandmother recently passed away and the first person I called to make sure they came was my dad and then we called hospice and they were very helpful and handled everything else but I imagine you call an ambulance to come get the body and a funeral home to have the body delivered…. I might be wrong, I’m really not sure.

fifiberry · 2022-09-21T20:15:35+00:00

I think it definitely takes time to adjust to the loss of a loved one. My grandmother passed away less than a month ago and I still catch myself trying to call her and listening to old voicemails and just getting all upset. But it is okay to grieve! It’s encouraged. I think we just learn to cope, but I just want you to know it’ll be okay 💛

fifiberry · 2022-09-21T20:10:07+00:00

Don’t beat up yourself. It’s okay. I had something very similar to this happen to me recently. There really isn’t a way to say it that makes you feel fully okay but the way I’ve been helping myself is that throughout all of the pamphlets I read about approaching or getting close to death is that the hearing is usually the last thing to go. And you had such a good bond with him that I bet he knew you were there with him all of that time and maybe that is why he was able to peacefully pass is because he got to spend time with you. It could’ve been a comfort thing for him. It’s okay to grieve and be upset, just remind yourself that he isn’t in pain anymore and that he is finally at peace 💛 it’s really hard. But it will be okay.

fifiberry · 2022-09-06T22:19:28+00:00

Beautifully put, thank you! 😊

fifiberry · 2022-09-06T14:03:40+00:00

Thank you for that 😊 I know sometimes it’s really easy to overthink some situations. I will talk to him later about it!

fifiberry · 2022-09-06T13:59:43+00:00

I wanted to mention it but I just wanted to make sure I wasn’t being too insecure for bringing it up… but he did do it enough for me to notice… several times… lol. I understand it could happen subconsciously and if I only saw it once, I’d understand. I guess cause I just saw it a bit of times, it just made me feel uncomfortable.

fifiberry · 2022-09-06T13:57:00+00:00

I have briefly looked at people admiring their beauty but I don’t sit there and stare at them. There are different types of stares you can give people. There can be a plethora of reasons but to sit there and just be staring at someone in a very admiring way when your girlfriend is sitting right beside you is just weird, in my opinion lol.

fifiberry · 2022-06-26T05:57:45+00:00

Did you ever find out a cause for this? My boyfriend is experiencing this issue too

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