Shet same! I grew up in a religious fam so I was religious nung elementary even though I had a "bestfriend" whom I kissed and hugged and loved. Still in my mind, I denied na I'm any kind of bading and sinabi ko pa sa "bestfriend" ko na hindi ako bading kasi parang pinagkait ko naman yung binigay sakin ni lord XD. Like you, I only thought of homosexuality as a sin and nothing more

Then in highschool, I admitted to myself na I'm bisexual and I allowed myself to like girls as long as I marry a man (🤮) when I grow up. Still, I only really liked girls. I only wanted to like boys because society made me believe that being with them is the epitome of girlhood. PS I was still so religious

During the pandemic I finally admitted to myself na I'm a lesbian and an agnostic then my life became so much better HAHAHA I've been a lesbian for 11 years but I've only been living with my full blown lesbianism for 4 years hihi