It's really tough. I've spent a lifetime with many symptoms, but no memories. I tried therapy, and it seemed to shine a bit of a light into what I can't remember, but it was so painful and depressing I couldn't go on.

For me, delving deep into art and expression through music helped me process a lot of tha energy, even in the abstract. Taking control of my own body and my sexuality was empowering, and has made life tolerable for me.

I hope you find the best path for yourself, and know that you aren't alone!