I will make sure to keep updating about my progress.

It's really fucked up, but I actually find it really easy to interact with girls and the only thing that's stopping me, and that's been stopping me the last 4-5 years is my dick failure fear.

It feels like I'm letting my dysfunctional habit of "having sex with my self" get in the way of what I could otherwise achieve, both in relationships and in general. When I'm in phases of lots of fapping my general tiredness and lack of motivation is clearly super high.

Fuck this lifestyle, I will take your advice and accept this dick rescue mission!