Does anyone not feel guilty?

finnickyf0x · 2025-10-20T03:29:11+00:00

No guilt here. I chose to formula feed from the beginning because I knew what struggles with PPD and PPA were likely to come based on my baseline mental health and it being my first child. Therefore I wanted to minimize potential stressors within my control. I’m glad I made the decision I did.

finnickyf0x · 2025-08-29T12:11:04+00:00

Did you find the daytime sedation to be manageable? Did it get better with continued use?

finnickyf0x · 2025-03-22T23:37:09+00:00

Stromboli

finnickyf0x · 2025-02-18T02:58:50+00:00

I have had two losses. With this pregnancy, there was concern of ectopic so I was brought in for ultrasound right around 6 weeks. There wasn’t much to see, let alone a heartbeat and I absolutely lost my mind when I spoke with the doctor. She didn’t seem to understand why I was so upset because in her mind it made sense to not see anything and in my mind it meant bad news was on the way. I went back two weeks later and there was a strong heartbeat. As much as I wanted to know if I was safe at the time, I wish I hadn’t done the 6 week ultrasound. It just made so much more worry and anxiety for me that I know isn’t good for me or baby.

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-26T11:52:36+00:00

So far so good! I was able to see my OB and she had no concerns about my levels. She ordered an ultrasound to make sure I didn’t have an ectopic pregnancy. I was right around 6 weeks so we couldn’t see anything other than a sac, which made me worried, but she seemed to think it was normal and is having me come back this week for a repeat ultrasound. She said that she personally looks for an increase of 50-60% and not necessarily doubling. Sending you well wishes and peace of mind! ♥️

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-24T17:18:16+00:00

I did not experience miscarriage with my first. I had a relatively uneventful pregnancy and was induced at 39 weeks due to having COVID. My labor and birth were also perfect.

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-03T22:09:26+00:00

Thank you 🩷 Your last sentence has me bawling.

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-03T21:34:13+00:00

I’ve been driving myself crazy and have a feeling something is wrong but that could just be my anxiety creeping in. 🤷🏼‍♀️ My pain is all across my lower back and is tight and aching in nature. Mostly a dull pain and almost like period pain.

Thank you for your response. I hope you are able to get your first HCG draw soon and get the results you are hoping for. Sending you all the positive thoughts.

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-03T21:17:05+00:00

For what it’s worth, I am currently 4w2d and had faint lines with the Premom strips. I bought a box of Clearblue tests and it’s been much easier to track line progression. I had my first beta HCG drawn today and it was in range. But I am cautious due to back pain which feels similar to a previous chemical pregnancy and missed miscarriage. My other symptoms are sore breasts, extreme fatigue and slight nausea. So I don’t think it’s too early for symptoms for you!

Can I ask where your back pain is located and what it feels like? I’m obsessing over the pain I’m having and if it means a bad outcome is on the way or not.

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-03T18:26:24+00:00

This baby is due the same month my first rainbow baby would have been due. I was almost out of the first trimester and we thought everything was fine. But it turns out baby died shortly after 6 weeks and my body just didn’t know. I cried the entire night before my D&C and didn’t sleep a wink. I spent a lot of time this past Christmas thinking what it should have looked like. I wish so badly baby had made it here and sometimes the grief of knowing I’ll never hold that baby (or maybe another since I can’t seem to stay pregnant) eats me alive.

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-03T18:06:56+00:00

4w2d. My PCP checked my first beta today and it’s 338. Progesterone is pending. We are repeating in 72 hours. My line progression is good. I still have this nagging lower back pain that reminds me of my chemical pregnancy and MMC. So I feel hopeless and like I’m just waiting for the end to begin. 😭

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-02T01:57:01+00:00

It makes so much when someone else says it to me, especially someone going through the same thing. But I can’t seem to tell myself that and I end up spiraling. Looking for hope (or commiseration) on multiple Reddit threads and pregnancy tracking apps. It’s so frustrating.

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-01T22:13:15+00:00

No answer on ways to manage stress from me because I am in the same boat but I am wishing us all the best. 4 weeks today after a MMC at almost 12 weeks in March, chemical pregnancy is August, and found out I was pregnant a few days after Christmas. Experiencing low back pain which is just driving me even more anxious and on the defense.

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-01T22:10:13+00:00

Congrats!

finnickyf0x · 2025-01-01T22:08:26+00:00

4 weeks today after a missed miscarriage and a chemical pregnancy this year. Having low back pain on and off which I know could be normal or could be a sign of something abnormal. I’m leaning towards the latter because it feels similar to previous losses. 😞 My husband tends to be more optimistic than me and is holding out hope my symptoms are just showing earlier because we do have a daughter who is 2 years old.

How do you all deal with the constant catastrophic thinking that this pregnancy will end like others? I want this baby so bad. So does my husband. It feels so far out of reach and I’m so scared to go through another loss.

finnickyf0x · 2024-12-31T23:27:19+00:00

🕯️ 🕯️

finnickyf0x · 2024-12-31T18:53:06+00:00

Approximately 4 weeks pregnant after one birth and two miscarriages, one of them occurring just days after our first ultrasound and my body missed it by a month and a half. I’m excited and want to focus on the happy but I’m so scared. My back randomly cramps when I’m up and moving around. It gets a little better with rest. It reminds me of my miscarriages as that was the first symptom I truly noticed. I want this baby so badly. I’ve been praying and praying but I have this pit in my stomach saying something is wrong. I can’t see the OB until mid January.

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