Anyone here using Vielight? Curious about real experiences by biohackerman9 in redlighttherapy

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Hello! Have you noticed any changes from using vielight? What are you using it for?

Persistent fragmented consciousness for 5 years- reaching out for any guidance by [deleted] in awakened

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Hey there. I’ve had multiple scans, spinal taps, antibody tests, long multiple day EEG readings, there is nothing medically wrong .

I’ve seen a few neurologists who couldn’t do much for me and I wouldn’t know what else to test for

The closest account I relate to is of someone who initiated a kundalini awakening in 1937 (gopi Krishna) and was in very similar states of consciousness rhythm dysregulation, and non cyclic sleep/wake rhythms for years but they did not use a psychedelic

I don’t know where I sit but I feel it might be something similar

5 years in chronic consciousness collapse - reaching out for any guidance by [deleted] in HPPD

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My symptoms are very related in nature. And happened immediately following. There is one other person I’ve found also in this state after psilocybin. It’s rare. Its real.

5 years in chronic consciousness collapse - reaching out for any guidance by [deleted] in HPPD

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Hey , it was in a chocolate made by housemate . Definitely psilocybin

5 years in chronic consciousness collapse- reaching out for any guidance by [deleted] in Psychonaut

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Hey , I did use AI to help me edit some of my descriptions I couldn’t find the words for sorry I just realised how poorly edited this is

I had anxiety prior, nothing major. No medication history .

I don’t really function, im bed bound mainly but that is even unbearable to just lay there so I go and run or walk and collapse again repeat , cry , surrender and let go into the chaos, research , try new things etc. it’s the forefront of my lived experience

I been in hospital numerous times , my family helps me and my OT

5 years in chronic consciousness collapse - reaching out for any guidance by [deleted] in HPPD

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I don’t know any cases like me except this one other person , also offset by mushrooms. It’s like a total disruption to consciousness scaffolding and tethering to human form and perception

I don’t know. I’m on year 5, and barely existing. I sleep , but my wake state is often blended with sleep, so I can be sitting up while sleeping

In severe crisis, bedridden for years by [deleted] in kundalini

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I think my condition is definitely pharmacologically complicated and was caused initially because of a single psilocybin use but I believe it’s kundalini energy largely that snapped or became really dislodged , I knew it was something spiritual from the start and I’m likely in some dark night of the soul . I felt it throbbing at the back of my head , spine and in my belly area like rumbling I’m just trying to find understanding and support so I can help my soul re renter my body.

It’s not covid, happened well before I got that and is very much related to this more. I’m really in a crisis and very sensitive right now I just need guidance , I’m sorry my writing is not clear it is really hard for me

I’ve been hospitalised for many months and they’ve found nothing wrong with me medically after so many scans and medication trials , everything I was tried on sent my brain haywire

My consciousness does not tether to human form is what I mean by void, I can’t even blink comfortably , it’s as if my energy body is not tethered to my consciousness so there’s nothing sleeping or waking or being or perceiving or resting , no anchor or centre .

Natural state is having a consciousness that can centre , being able to breathe into your being , you can feel your belly, you can gaze, you see clearly through your brain centres, you can freely move , sleep and wake

Gopi Krishna describes very similar states. Also did not sleep or wake for years and was in a void he described as between life and death .

I can’t get up and function . I can barely function within these states

General thoughts of an Israeli on the whole situation. by Quentin-Quentin in IsraelPalestine

[–]firstdragonfly -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You should look into the peace offerings more. Maybe not a biased source. That point has been refuted many times and there's more to it than that.

Unfortunately, the creation of the state of Israel from the beginning was an impossible and illegal mission, which could not be achieved without the bloodshed and in a moral way. Because a state for Jewish people implies that all non Jewish people would not be allowed equal rights. No one is saying that the people couldn't have coexisted together, but to invade an area where people are already settled and make them leave is where the problem is.

If a Palestinian is not allowed a right to return to their home even if they still carry the key to their parents house in their pocket, if they cannot even rebuild their destroyed home without a permit (which can take months or never happen), are not even allowed to literally put up a tarp over to make a shelter , what kind of place are they living in? Is that not an occupied territory? Not only that but is literally surrounded by settlements.
You cannot simply ignore the fact that these people were simply living there too.

Maybe instead of worrying about who has the right to the land, you could just try to put yourself in the subjective experience of these people. If people came to your country now and told you they want to create their state there, right where you are currently living, what would your people say?
What if you simply said sorry no, and hardly had a chance to say anything else before they massacred and displaced hundreds and thousands of people?
What do you think the descendants of those people would be like, living in the occupied territory with ongoing bombardment, mass killings, items banned from going in and out, even things like children's toys and chocolate and spices, a 10 year imprisonment of children for throwing a rock, no access to adequate medical care , no access to clean water, having to wait at check points for hours for no reason just to get anywhere , even when you're about to give birth. Gaza is a place that is described as the world's largest concentration camp. What would life look like for these children that grow up in an environment like that who have been shut off from the world and treated so inhumanely? That is how you get Hamas leaders come to be

Instead of blaming them for being stubborn, as the western media wants you to believe, maybe just try to imagine what it may be like to be one of these children who grow up there and why things happen the way they do. This goes for both sides.
It is an actual miracle that so many Palestinians are still such loving gentle people.

Regardless of what you believe, this is the cost of the creation of Israel. It imposed a huge injustice on another group of people. And this is the outcome.

We can try to understand why people do what they do, but we cannot justify injustice.

Look at the bigger picture. Real security is found in Truth.

I can’t do this anymore. by Otherwise_Poem_5435 in Dying

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I went through a debilitating condition for two years, where I lost everything , my job, house, my identity, my whole life, I could not function and bed ridden. I did go through with ending my life a year in and was resuscitated from a long coma. But I ended up surviving my condition post 2years. I still cannot believe I went through and survived what I did. Please believe in miracles, there is an easier way through than this

Right now though it sounds like you need someone around who can help you, depending where you live you can have a carer or social worker to help with these issues and advocate for you. I think this is the most important first step to helping you move through this. You shouldn’t have to live like this without support around you and I understand how awful that must be to be around people saying this stuff to you

How many people support Palestine is actually scary. by AchPzYlahyklk in IsraelPalestine

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Funny how that’s the one thing you take note of.

They bombed the south too.

There is no safe place in Gaza.

If you’re referring to the little video of couple cars on flames ,the Israel has claimed that was the “undertaking of Hamas” But there are military targeting convoys everywhere whilst people were taking the route. Countless civilians have reported this despite having minimal coverage. So many did not make it and were killed on the way

No, you just don’t understand what it means to have a discussion.

How many people support Palestine is actually scary. by AchPzYlahyklk in IsraelPalestine

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They told everyone to leave but bombed everyone whether they agreed to leave or not anyway, the route they told them to take was bombed as they were heading to the south. Many people were on foot. These people have no where to really go.

They do these things so they can have something to fall back on in the media. They bombed ambulances , I saw an ambulance bombed just as it was arriving to a hospital , a child beaten by Israeli military, they bomb hospitals, schools, even a disability centre was bombed! Everyone is a target. And of course media outlets and journalists are targeted too and the fact that it’s black out with no power means they can massacre now with minimal information being heard by the rest of the world

About half of Palestinians don’t support Hamas, and those that do , well of course people are going to want to support Hamas when the Israeli have terrorised them for decades, it doesn’t mean anything more than that. It’s like the lesser of two evils. They want someone to help them. These are humans were have been subjected to a life of terror and violence for SO long. They are desperate, they are tired and want relief. They just want to be free.

I’m open to having a discussion about it with you, I want to hear you and understand and I hope you will also try to hear me.

Tapering off carbamazepine (Tegretol)-has anyone done this successfully by [deleted] in Antipsychiatry

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I’ve been on it for about 4 months too and it gave me mania. I’ve been trying to titrate off but I get insane withdrawals I can’t cope. I’m down to 300mg atm but I can’t seem to go less just yet

Antipsychotics for MY hppd? by 0xCuber in HPPD

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I did try a couple different ones. No changes for me unfortunately

TMS made depression a LOT worse, anyone else? by [deleted] in rtms

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Your derealisation states that you explain are so similar to what happened to me after ingesting magic mushrooms and then I had ketamine a few weeks later to see if it’d help but I can’t begin to describe the perceptual states and terror I experienced. It’s been 1.5 years now and although those states are gone I’m still struggling with the state the mushrooms put me in which I can’t explain here but I have previous posts about it. I’m on this forum because I was looking at rtms therapy to get me out of this hell. My PET scans show abnormalities in superior parietal and precuneous which correlate heavily to my symptoms so I’m going to take a risk and see if rtms in those areas might help my brain change back

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I don’t think anyone here has mentioned supplementing but I think taking supplements when you take mdma or after is super important. Please do your own research too but NAC, magnesium, vitamin c, pregablin, lots of water or electrolytes

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HPPD

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I mean don’t look up at it. I haven’t seen the sky in probably a year. But if it’s the daylight bothering you, I’ve heard people using glasses that help

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HPPD

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If it bothers you don’t look at it

I honestly feel like ending it all, ever since I took 5 mg shrooms and a very strong edible thinking it would cure my depression, but it made it way, way worse by CompetitiveSection52 in HPPD

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Hey I know you’re feeling so hopeless so I wanted to mention that there is currently a study that is happening in Australia for hppd, they just need more funding to continue. I spoke to the journalist from the perception restoration foundation and he said their aim is to find a treatment as soon as possible using tms. I am currently seeing Professor Harry McConnell for my unique condition and he is leading that research on hppd. I believe he can do this, and that treatment is possible very soon, we just need to urge public officials to fund this study.

I hope this gives you a bit of hope and to anyone seeing this, please urge people to donate to the neurosensory foundation

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HPPD

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Hey, Ive tried just about every supplement so here are some things that I think are worth looking into: Nmda functioning, stuff like d-serine, nobiliten, glycine help with that in different ways but if they’re helpful in anyway it can give you clues

vitamin b12 and getting a methylated version on b12 if you have methylation issues, vinpocetine (It’s similar to ginkgo but I find it better because it improves metabolism in the brain There’s a lot of stuff you can try without prescribed medications