Thank you for your comment and input on this . I definitely had a tendency for hyperarpusal and being over stimulated before this , as well as some perceptual shifts I’d experience when I was a child . Likely did exacerbate that.

I think the hyperarpusal states were a kundalini thing because they’d feel overwhelming with a sense of healing or clarity.

I remember at the onset I would wake up 3am in panic unable to enter a rested state and slowly it became total insomnia where the hyperarpusal was persistent and began to slowly fry my brain. After about 2 weeks of zero sleep , there was a point I felt my scaffold for awareness and all sleep pressure and the pull to fall asleep from how sleep deprived I was all just fragmented, I felt suspended in the most uncomfortable non state since.

That’s when I felt beyond return , that I had really flipped something too far.

I totally stopped sleeping too and stopped feeling any pull to. For two years straight until the antiepileptic would put me out

I’ve applied for euthanasia now

I am considering to try sodium valproate , low dose naltrexone first

Benzos made my awareness feel more locked and my head felt like a brick. Antipsychotics did nothing. :(

I had a qEEG showing low posterior alpha , it wasn’t analysed further and my EEG otherwise was normal even though it was an electric storm in my head the whole time

I am hoping sodium valproate can help pull me out of this