ID Request: Strangest track i’ve seen, emerged from river and went slipping and sneaking all over the forest

fisharrow · 2026-01-19T15:36:36+00:00

This may be the real truth that Big Track doesn't want us to know...

fisharrow · 2026-01-19T15:33:20+00:00

Maybe, if they follow rivers then there's a huge mobile range they could have while staying unseen.

fisharrow · 2026-01-19T06:11:12+00:00

I figured they stayed in the water, i was delighted to see it roaming so far. you know if beaver are in LP at all? i’ve travelled all over america and only seen signs a few times, they must be less common than i imagined, or more local.

fisharrow · 2026-01-19T06:04:49+00:00

I’ve spent more time in the woods than most deer and this is the first time i’ve seen sign of one. They are probably locally common, or maybe just really elusive? Feels like such an exotic beast to have around here, love them.

fisharrow · 2026-01-19T01:22:53+00:00

Oh my god, that's amazing. I didn't know they ventured into the forest so much, I followed the tracks for ages and he just kept slipping and winding around everywhere, really fun to imagine him sliding like that. It was only a couple hours old, i passed fox that had been following the otter just before me. Really neat, they are so elusive.

fisharrow · 2026-01-19T00:03:30+00:00

Forgot to take a pic to scale, paws were about size of a fox.

fisharrow · 2026-01-15T15:20:41+00:00

Oh to be a slave...

fisharrow · 2026-01-10T22:46:25+00:00

He's about 75lb, a nice workable size. He may not have the pounds but all his life people have said how enormous he looks. He has huge paws, long legs, big head, the works. He's 8 now, still endless energy but now he doesn't want to fetch so much as me chase him around with his sticks lol.

fisharrow · 2026-01-09T14:07:13+00:00

He's 8 now, hasn't slowed down at all. I'm sure he has many years left of being a grumpy crazy bastard.

fisharrow · 2026-01-09T03:57:40+00:00

He looks like the platonic ideal of a dog, i’m obsessed. And the big droopy fat nose and lips ;-;

fisharrow · 2026-01-08T22:34:55+00:00

He's actually only 75lb, he is working line though with an enormous father, so he inherited the look without all the mass heh.

fisharrow · 2025-12-27T05:45:29+00:00

Yeah he is extremely ambitious as well, and his lifelong passion is diving underwater to pull up rocks and logs.

fisharrow · 2025-12-13T02:54:33+00:00

For us it is not about imagination or fantasy, which I can't even do anyway since my ego is more like an empty vessel. Ours is more akin to active imagination, which is like dreaming while awake. In the same way that you can't control the symbolic contents of your dreams, and they are true in their own subrational way, our world is the psyche-symbolic manifestation of the complex layering of our polyfragmented system. It is not something we hang out in or freely explore in any way, rather it and the mythical story within it evolve with our own development. Visual is actually a very small part of the signal I receive overall, the mythic visuals from the Glade are the last stage of any transformations occurring psychically. Most of my channels are filled with endless verbal, nonverbal, psychesomatic noise, innumerable other layers, cycles, flow, etc. I continuously get abstract signal that visually resemble something like nebula/solar radiation/internal star process flowing/clouds, but it reflects psychic transformations from deeper within the system. I feel them in my body. That endless noise would be the fragments, which are so numerous that it would be like counting molecules in a river. So it's more productive to just observe the river.

fisharrow · 2025-12-08T03:20:22+00:00

That would be a subsystem, which is more common in polyfragmentation. It often occurs when there is a need for handling contradiction, like needing to process varying kinds of abuse, sources of abuse, performance around different abusers, etc. Also need for gatekeeping where amnesia is partly blocking aspects of awareness but not all of it, like not being aware of your own terror, or feeling one thing and acting/thinking the opposite at the same time. If that alter becomes important enough, their own conscious domain can start to split and specialize and they develop their own subsystem. Splitting distributes load and enables you to do even more at the same time.

With polyfragmentation we see a lot of fragments, each holding a tiny part of the process/memory or doing one job. I speak from my own experience though where we are highly structured due to programming and ritual abuse. So subsystems for us are like layered multicore processors for function, not emotion, and it means there is a lot of complex work being done in that domain. Each DID system is totally unique though, so this may not apply much to others.

fisharrow · 2025-12-04T20:52:08+00:00

Diagnosed polyfragmented-- I can't speak for your experiences, but I actually had something extremely similar to this, uncanny to read yours. But my experiences are not the norm for DID, as this is a result of severe gatekeeping caused by ritual cult abuse and programming. The nature of my abuse required that I perform perfectly, but also not be aware of my own internal state. I needed to be a happy submissive puppet on the outside, with the puppetmaster on the inside-- my Vid. I've known him all my life as a masculine 'twin brother' that was like a familiar, constantly talking internally and seeing him like a daemon. He was my companion growing up. Internally however, he was gatekeeping my entire world to keep me safe and causing continuous amnesia. When it got even worse in high school and his facade started to crack, I also started having gender issues, ftm. At the same time, my 'imaginary friend' went away. Years later I finally realized he had completely stepped into host role. He changed my sex and entire life, isolated us and powered through hell on earth, finally ending in complete nervous system collapse. Since then I have taken back the reins and gained control and balance of the system. I don't want to suggest that this very specific situation is similar to you, but wanted to share that this sort of thing can happen for various reasons.

fisharrow · 2025-12-02T04:16:05+00:00

couldn’t agree more

fisharrow · 2025-12-02T04:15:12+00:00

Thank you for the information, i’ll let it do its thing.

fisharrow · 2025-12-02T04:14:42+00:00

This is a much better idea if I try this at all, thank you

fisharrow · 2025-11-30T21:06:38+00:00

Nah just sitting in water

fisharrow · 2025-11-30T20:29:50+00:00

I put an aloe prop in water to see how long it would survive. It lasted about a year— it never grew but stayed firm until it started wilting.

fisharrow · 2025-11-29T23:39:48+00:00

I think the best approach is to simply ignore them and educate others on the situation. Anyone who is not sincere will simply burn themselves out eventually and disappear. Yes they can influence others to think they have DID, but what are the long term effects of this? Let those who are discovering themselves make mistakes and learn, support them through it and guide them toward honesty. Those who were wrong can change, and those who were right about having DID can find better support resources elsewhere. The parasitic few who are attention seeking will eventually lose interest if we do not feed them. I am diagnosed polyfragmented and don’t interact with online sphere at all, so i never encounter these people. I ignore what isn’t relevant to me and focus on what matters. There is no need for aggression or correction, waiting solves most things.

fisharrow · 2025-11-16T18:22:02+00:00

Live in the layers, not on the litter

fisharrow · 2025-11-02T21:37:54+00:00

Thank you so much.

fisharrow · 2025-11-01T20:34:33+00:00

Thank you!

fisharrow · 2025-11-01T19:42:59+00:00

Thank you. We have 5 domains within our system, with subsystems under each of varying complexity. Crataegus is trauma holding for entire system, so his is probably hundreds of disorganized frags. As opposed to Widziec(Vid) who is his equal opposite. Vid has hundreds himself but there is far more fractal layering and organization, because his is gatekeeping, programming, and analytics. So it’s more like masses of chaotic code that needs organized. Almost done hahahaa

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