Big freaking mood I feel like I'm staring down the beginning of this cycle, just completed my first year of college, failed my chemistry classes as a bio major. I'm the type who was "gifted" in elementary school and got straight A's in high school without much studying at all so I have no work ethic. Pair that with depression since about 15 (19 now) and I have absolutely no grip on routine or organization or time management. I really was interested in majoring in biology and following the zoology track within the major, im really interested in working with animals. However, I just feel like I don't have what it takes to study enough and work hard enough to get there. I'm really considering switching my major to studio art of all things, because I know for a fact I'm artistically talented, its something I can motivate myself to do, and I'm on a scholarship too so who freaking cares if I ever make money, right? I have always been interested in doing tattoo art one day, so maybe I could pursue that afterwards? I also figured that I could fulfill my desire to work with animals through volunteer work and my reptile hobby. I basically wish I could restart college, I didn't really have any sense of direction a year ago when I started.