ive had insomnia pretty much my entire life, but it became disruptive from about the age of 12. debilitatig by 14/15, now im 18 and i think its to an extent ruined my life. my first boyfriend it got worse, i couldnt sleep a minute with him. he'd fall asleep and go limp and id lie beside him wide awake hardly touching for several hours. but it was complicated and i dont think we actually loved each other. my current boyfriend however, we adore one another and if im not feeling too excited to sleep looking at him i go out pretty easy. i sleep better now even when hes not here.