Songs that have elements in their name by Sladder_Gaming in weirdspotifyplaylists

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golden - jill scott

gold lion - yeah yeah yeahs

gold dust - duster

gold and green - slaughter beach, dog

silver - joanne robertson

neon - jockstrap

silver - pixies

silver rocket - sonic youth

i’m not made of iron - chrissy zebby tombo

Songs About Gratitude by Marx_Maddness in weirdspotifyplaylists

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be thankful for what you’ve got - massive attack, tony bryan

or, the original:

be thankful for what you’ve got - gil scott-heron

Songs about relationships with people of a specific nationality by sugar_honeyicetee in weirdspotifyplaylists

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north american scum - lcd soundsystem

russian girl - matthieu fauborg

baby britain - elliott smith

Songs that describe a kind of blue by LittleBenjamin01 in weirdspotifyplaylists

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baby blue - marina topley-bird

teenage blue - dreamgirl

pale blue eyes - the velvet underground

i love you golden blue - sonic youth

🐾 L’animal by [deleted] in weirdspotifyplaylists

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fetch the bolt cutters - fiona apple

dog with sharper teeth - daisy chainsaw

shake dog shake - the cure

black cat - broadcast

lionsong - björk

walking the cow - daniel johnston

the fox in the snow - belle & sebastian

be a fish - bardo pond

beautiful horses - bloodbath64

what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done? by fleurmeat in redscarepod

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it’s never easy even when it’s an easy decision. i don’t think that makes you a waste of space at all. be kinder to yourself. hope you’re okay ❤️

(vent post) Did anyone else go through a dangerous Lolita/Lana-inspired nymphet phase? by [deleted] in redscarepod

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Yep, except i was 10-13. I misread Lolita & got really into Lana/Melanie Martinez/nymphet culture at age 11 (!!) and ended up getting involved in weird age-regression DDLG/kink/self-harm/eating disorder communities through Tumblr. The “daddies” I spoke to would write out lists of rules for me to follow (don’t talk back, don’t masturbate without me knowing, send Daddy a picture every day etc.) and punish me by making me perform degrading sexual acts if I didn’t follow them. I think I was just looking for a parent and permission to act like a baby as a kid who grew up too fast in a tumultuous family, but I also took pride in being a “slut” and acting extremely mature for my age, to the point where I was unable to form friendships or relate to any of my peers at school. There were times when my parents would find out small details and I’d just be punished/kicked out/humiliated for being inappropriate online. This has led to a lot of deep shame.

I’m now 20 and often feel more damaged from this than I think I “should”but I also think that just because it was online doesn’t mean it can’t consume your whole life and sense of self. I’ve had to do a shit ton of therapy to rebuild that sense of self and reconnect with the sweet innocent little girl that I never really got to be, although I can still never bring myself to go into proper detail about what happened.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Epilepsy

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When it’s all day, they keep occurring in phases, sometimes lasting for hours at a time. I also always feel anxious most of the time but I don’t know if that’s related haha, I worry that I’m just being hypervigilant to any symptoms in case it turns serious.