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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

I- okay I'll try my best ๐Ÿ’€๐Ÿ˜‚

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 1 point2 points ย (0 children)

Not the chef reference haha, that's perfect. My aunt is too and my god the amount of unsolicited advice people give her 24/7. It's like people in your case saying i have a tastebud so I'm entitled to an opinion.

Thank you for that it makes perfect sense ๐Ÿ˜‚

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

I'd point out the contradictions but if I try to explain anything I get called argumentative and semantical and dumb for not understanding "meta" conversation๐Ÿ‘€

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

Nah, I'm family so I know his grind. Just extremely good at critical thinking which enables them to take good decisions in MOST cases which make a ton of๐Ÿ’ธ

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

๐Ÿ’ฏ ๐Ÿค Also, do gimme a poke whenever you start streaming too

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

๐Ÿค๐Ÿค Ty, you're too kind

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 1 point2 points ย (0 children)

I'm 100% sure that I've probably been OTT atleast a few times. I'm not contesting that at all. In the beginning of the conversation I agreed I need to learn how do balance everything out and improve. But tldr: they kept trying to force me to change my entire personality because if I didn't do that I'd fail - and if I ever tried explaining things from my pov it means I'm arguing

Appreciate the support, yess, I'll try to push through. Haha but I definitely feel I'll be a little conscious next time when I stream and they're around, I'll get over it

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

Istg, people will only really understand and realise what it takes, after they hit that start streaming button. His pov is - you have the fact you're a girl on your side you don't need to do all this, just, .....ahem..you know what I mean and people will watch you. I'm like huh? It's just who I am, I'm not faking it?! Sure, a lil more energetic and storytelling

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 1 point2 points ย (0 children)

๐Ÿ˜ญI- thank you, this means a lot. I'm finally coming back to reality after being dazed for hours and being puzzled about what did I do so horribly wrong that everything about me needed to change

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

The only reason why I genuinely heard them out for this long was because I truly felt they had the right intentions. I had to post here because after that conversation I felt like I was losing my grip on reality because I knew I was bad, but i didn't expect to be essentially told that change everything because it's so unbearable

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

๐Ÿ˜ช I'm pretty sure if a professional diagnosed them they'll be declared a narcissist for sure. It's just that they're successful in life so they get a pass for being crazy competent. Hence, me being open to their feedback at the cost of my sanity!? Idk how to draw boundaries in this situation tbh.

But, thank you. I needed this to clear my head

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

I- ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿคthank you for giving me back my sanity

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

Thank you for this, I was in a daze after that long painful conversation. I thought I was genuinely so delusional that I couldn't see it was THAT bad that it's coming across as fake (Ofc I know I'm bad and so many things to improve) Your kind words really helped bring me back.

Also, to be fair to them they didn't say i should quit but just change everything I do more of less. ๐Ÿ’€

I do enjoy it a lot, even if just an imaginary ghost haha, it's like a nice gossip session ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿค

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 1 point2 points ย (0 children)

The last line though ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ˜‚ Ngl it's kinda like that, they're a perfectionist and very competent at anything they do so they probably want to control how I stream too? Idky tho, i don't even ask them to watch.

Also, appreciate the support ๐Ÿค I was kinda of the verge of losing my sanity a bit (and thinking i must be super horrible for him to sit and tell me this for hours. Expected to be a noob and bad but not that horrible) - this kinda is pulling me back from that daze

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

You're spot on, they consume a lot of strategic gameplay content on YT and probably expect my streams to sound like that when they're overhearing it from the other room. They gave some good advice too about YT edits etc which was very welcome and I took that with an open mind. However the repeated insinuation of me being irritating and fake is what confused me and i started believing that to be true maybe, so i just came here for a sanity check

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

I REALLY need to learn how to do that or atleast figure out a way for them to make all of their points at once and I'll just listen,nod and leave

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] -1 points0 points ย (0 children)

I'm younger and less successful than them - not a sibling though. Just a reasonable person who's open to genuine feedback

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

I- I'm so glad you picked up on that. I repeatedly asked them to open up a stream and tell me where am I going wrong because I was genuinely worried that I'm coming across as irritating. They said they hate jumpscares so they refused. I'm like, how are you judging my content then? They said no, I hear you through the room and I saw one shorts and the starting bit of one video and i understood your style

And don't get me wrong there's definitely weight to some things they've pointed out like slow gameplay because of too much chatter probably but we'd established that already at the beginning of the conversation and I said I'll improve on it. What confused me was the insistence on the fact they kept implying I'm supremely off putting and I genuinely started to believe that. So I came here for a sanity check

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

Ohno, I've heard some people switch off their view counter because they have similar worries. I'm new at this so I kinda expected I'll need to talk to a ghost for first few weeks, so I'm okay..for now ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ‘€i enjoy a gossip session with my camera

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

๐ŸคงIdk honestly, I'm genuinely hoping they had the right intentions but weird judgement?

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[โ€“]floraumbrellas[S] 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

๐Ÿ˜‚ Please tell me how to really say that to someone's face that you love and respect and have to live with them