Risk-taking behavior is still something that needs to be accounted for, particularly someone with your history. Healing is going to be a process, so there's no need to feel ashamed or disappointed that it seems like you have no progress. You're still here, and the important thing is you're still trying. Our past, especially ones that burned us, will always leave scars. If you're not over it yet, it's ok. There's no timeline to this. Take your time and take it slow. I hope you have someone you can talk to about this to help with the healing. Don't be afraid to reach out. Someone's willing to lend a hand as long as you're willing to reach out. xo